Secrets secrets .. who knew what they were ..

Stacked away in her closet ..

Years of them , locked tightly ..

Who would she trust if at all ,

Vulnerabilities dressed in smiles

There was never anything wrong ..

she couldn’t even if she tried ..

to breathe a word would be to give it all away

So she kept silent .. closed her heart again ..

Final whispers wandered away without care .....

It was my friends sons 1st birthday .. we were one of the lucky ones she invited ..

I’d never been to a party she had hosted before .. so I was looking forward to it ..

The birthday boy is a charming young man ❤️

All dressed and ready we reached the hall ..

chairs and tables were all set for food to be served .. everyone made themselves comfortable in the fantastically decorated celebration..

...

The ping pong table was one the whole family enjoyed in the evenings ..

much like life itself .. ping pong balls are neither here nor there .. or bumping in both directions .. pleasing everyone isn’t easy ..

ping pong .. our favorite family game...

Dear friends,

A great deal of life is lost searching for the right moment ..

The right moment to eat a certain meal , the right moment to wear that glamorous dress hanging in your cupboard.. the right day to wear that expensive perfume you bought ..

The right moment to truly allow yourself to be happy ..

We look for people , days, places and moments .. as dictators of our very own happiness .. a...

I see you swallow your hidden guilt .. as you raise your voice above the others .. your nose above the clouds , you seem to have it all

All these people you call friends .. a circle you paid for .. showering you with compliments , keeping you company … hidden agendas

A guilt based reaction .Your warped perception of friendship.. something built on bribes and favors ..

It’s a shame you couldn’t...

Standing beside him she felt complete ..

All the friends were together that evening ..

it was his birthday ..

laughter and jokes , dancing and music .. the room was full of life

Just that there was something dying inside of her heart .. a pinch so hard she had to exclaim ..

Please can you come with me to the back yard ?

Now ? He asked ?

Yes …

They walked beside each other .. silence ..

H...

1st December 2022.

Dear diary ,

Winters near the North Pole are beyond my tolerance.. frost bite has blackened my feet and caused me a lot of pain ..

the wood for the fire is also finished ..

we shall see what tomorrow holds .. it’s night time , I’m looking out my window at the moon .. wishing it could draw some light from

The warmer nations it faces ..

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Light beings , existence feels like a feather .. the universe is vast ..

my voice is heard ..

Heard by all .. we are not boxed up ..

No walls separate us .. we fly alongside our alien friends …

The planets revolving .. a beautiful sea of stars ..

what a beauty to exist amidst this breathtaking view …

And if you really fancy a trip , come along we shall fly to the luminous sights … we can ...

Just one question .. why didn’t you reply to my text message ?

And that was the end of our friendship ..

My dear friend.. whom I kept very close to my heart , parted ways with me forever ..

I cannot see you as a friend anymore , she said ..

With all the shared history , good laughs , precious times and immense love .. I walked away ..

tears streaming down my face .. one’s that felt more like...

I’m not ready , I’m not prepared to let go .. why are you doing this ? What did I do wrong ? She

Cried .. she pleaded .. she begged ..

I will not be able to do this , please understand.. this is impossible for me .. you mean the world to me .. I cannot bring myself to part ways with you ..

she cried & cried , till the breath struggled to escape her aching lungs .. her voice fallen on deaf ears ....