“None of my jumpers fit” I lie,

Raiding your closet.

Your scent, your past days,

I want to live within them,

Like your memories are my present.

I wore it for weeks,

Days and days on end.

I slept with it,

Pretending you were with me.

I will never take you off of me.

Anything to be with you.

You are an extension of my being,

Like a branch on a tree,

A petal on a flower.

It’s impossibly ugly ...

Love makes you see the beautiful things in people.

The most beautiful things about my love is,

His crooked smile when I say something stupid.

His nose creases when he pulls faces to make me smile.

His soft lips when he kisses me.

His soft features while he sleeps.

I’ve never noticed such features on anything but my love. Most likely because I have never loved another as I love him.

He is m...

My birthday falls four days before yours,

Five years later.

I want to give you a gift,

The gift of love, but you get it from another.

And that’s okay,

You deserve lots of love but,

I always feel a connection with you,

I don’t know if you feel it too,

But I feel as if we are twin flames.

You’re taller than me,

Larger too,

I could wear your shirts like dresses,

If you’d let me.

I want to get...

Every day seems the same,

Sadness and my aloneness leaving

Stains on my heart like

My tears on my shirt.

I’ll never truly get over you,

Do you ever wonder about me?

Like how I wonder about you,

About how you didn’t like pickles,

About how socks were your favourite gift

To receive for Christmas.

Your smell radiates,

Much like your smile when you

Laughed at my bad jokes.

I don’t blame you ...

When you are lost within the darkness,

Darkness always finds a way to grab hold,

Hold your breath,

Breath which steams up the window as your wait for their return,

Return home to an empty room,

Room for you of which there is none.

None of them miss you.

You are alone.

Alone with your thoughts and their insulting words.

Words of which you listened to too many times.

Times of when it was better tha...

7am,

My alarm screams for me,

To hear the sounds of today.

Empty echos of what once was,

And beckoning calls of what’s to come.

I woke up,

In an empty room,

In my empty life.

7:30,

My shower cleanses my skin,

Washing away all the skins from the night before,

The night you had a hold on me.

9am,

I go to work,

Trapped in a box with others much like me,

Giving people what they want,

But never re...

Beaten down,

Shattered thoughts of you,

Spill to the floor,

Surrounding my broken heart.

You left me,

Broken,

Yet through the hardships,

Revenge was my strongest thought.

With knife in hand,

The blade met with your back,

Just like you,

When you first said “marry me.”...

I don’t know how to write this down,

Without crying tears of sorrow.

You were my everything,

Meant to be my tomorrow.

But you are gone now,

And this pain will not go.

Time has stopped for me,

Seconds pass so slow.

Now I sit here sobbing,

With my chin rested on both knees.

Without an end,

Instead there had to be a moment of ease....

When you died,

I was broken, into pieces of you

That you had passed onto me.

I tried to cope for the longest time,

But without you I was left empty,

Like your car as it sat in the driveway for

3 years after your passing.

The sent me away.

Locked me up for half a year,

All because I wanted to be with you.

My lost love.

My hero.

You wouldn’t be proud of the stuff I have

Done since you lef...

With eyes soaked like sponges that

I used to clean your drunken rage from

Our kitchen tiles, I stood,

Staring out at the memories you created,

Like I was a small ship capsizing in the perilous ocean.

Cold, dark and alone, I cry myself to sleep in our bed,

The sheets caressing the bruises you had left,

The only mark you had ever left on my life since we had began.

“Haven’t I given enough?”

I...