Aubrey
Hiii!!! My name is Aubrey! My favorite book is ‘All the Bright Places’ by Jennifer Niven
Aubrey
Hiii!!! My name is Aubrey! My favorite book is ‘All the Bright Places’ by Jennifer Niven
The Mirrors In My Mind
The mirrors in my mind Reflect my thoughts It’s easy to get lost When I can’t find the true side
The mirrors in my mind
Remind me of the times
Always reflecting the past
Even if I wish they would cast
The mirrors in my mind Are keeping me awake And they won’t stop Sometimes I wish an earthquake Would come along and shatter them Taking me along with them
If they shattered I would die And I think that would be alright
Stars
If you know me well enough You would know That I draw stars on my hand Constantly If I run out of room I keep going On every surface The table Your paper Your hand
Now, no one knows That each star I draw No matter how big or small Has a meaning An emotion A thought
I might draw a star if I’m feeling lonley Itll be my friend Or maybe Im angry I can sketch it onto my hand
You see what worries me most Is that I see them less and less Im starting to not draw them Which isnt for the best
You see my stars help me control my emotions And now they are piling up Ready to be spilled At any moment, abrupt
So if you find me dead in the sand I’ll bet you There are no stars On my hand
(If you ever meet me there will absolutely be stars on my hand (I hope))
Why?
Trigger Warning- suicide
I need to love myself? Id rather love you Running through parking lots Drive throughs
Why did you leave me? At my darkest time? You say I can’t love you If i dont love myself But babe, why does it hurt so much?
I watch the days pass by on paper, The weeks seem faster then the days And who is she? If Im so special if im so special why am I so easily replaced?
The world is spinning around me Theres blood on the carpet Theres no fixing whats already broken I think its time to leave the world behind
The Camping Delema
After a six hour car drive, we finally arive at the campgrounds. I jab Alex in the ribs to wake him up, and then get out of the car. I breath in the smell of fresh air, smelling the aroma of pine needles and hearing the distant gurgle of a river. I walk to the back of our car and open the hatch. “Umm- Alex? Where is the tent? Where is the food? All I see is beer and marshmallows. “Huh?” Alex says groggily “oh. Oops. Didnt think of that” “You dont think about anything” i shoot back “True” he shrugs
Inspired By The Way I Used To Be
We lay on your couch And we tell each other secrets Your dads an alcoholic And knows every drug in existence
I wonder why I never told Because I trusted you most
I left out a secret or two Im not as old as I said So when you found out You were mad
We dont speak You go to collage I stay in our hometown Slowly falling apart Goodbye, almost lover
Inspired by ‘The Way I Used To Be’ by Amber Smith (SUCH A GOOD BOOK) (also this is just on the first one)(and not the whole thing lol)
If Only I Told
TW
Always here But always alone Can’t find a person Do they even know? Even in crowds For I feel far off Got myself bleeding How can I stop?
I don’t feel alive Jokes aren’t funny Kids still laugh Lots of colors turn to Muted hues No more colors Others don’t know People don’t see Quiet, please, I can’t breath
Red seeps through my sleeves Sharp objects peirce Trying to bring me back Ugly scars Vast cuts Wondering eyes
Xtra jacket to cover my arms You’ll never know the extent of my scars Zoloft could help. If only I told.
(Yes i know thats not how you spell extra i didnt know what to write)