Im sorry. I vent a lot in my writing so it won’t be the most fun to read. Of you want to listen to that that’d make me very happy, but it’s just about my pain.
Im sorry. I vent a lot in my writing so it won’t be the most fun to read. Of you want to listen to that that’d make me very happy, but it’s just about my pain.
I’m so tired of the promises
So many are made
So many are broken
They tell me they’re here for me
They tell me they never leave
They tell me it’s okay to not be okay
They tell me they love me
All just to leave
Or hide
Or give up on me
It hurts
And it doesn’t end
They don’t stop coming
And they don’t stop going...
Life has its ups and downs
Why is it always down
I can’t find an up
And somehow it keeps getting lower
Why can’t it stop
I think the same thing every morning
Why can’t my thoughts,
My questions be answered
I just want to know something
I can’t get answers
I want to be done with life
So does my brain
So does my body
Why can’t it just stop...
It never really stops hurting does it
It’s especially hard when you have to keep fighting
When you want to be done with it all
But you have to keep fighting
It’s exhausting
And when you stop
Well now here’s the real you
And I don’t like the real me
I don’t like the fake me either
It never goes away
You’re never truly free
That pain and hurt
That feeling of fear and emptiness
It haunts you
It al...
When will it stop
When will it release me
I’m stuck in the chains
Trapped in my mind
Tourcher
Every other thought
Is a reason of why
I just don’t deserve to live
Never to be free
Never will I be proud
Forced to listen to my thoughts
Every every minute
Let it stop
Give me a key
Open the chains
I just want to be happy...
Sitting in hurt
Nothing to do but wait
But hope
Hoping this feeling won’t stay forever
My heart hurts so bad
Longing to be gone
Tired of fighting itself
Every single minute
So badly needs a rest
But when it rests
It breaks
Nothing but hate to itself
But with no rest
It’s tired
Uncontrollable
And the thoughts go everywhere
It just wants to go
The heartache
That sad hurting feeling
Stuck in my h...
You’re supposed to break in the glove
After you do it’s much better isn’t it
But after a week or two,
It’s broken
Unusable
Garbage
And it’s tossed away
Now go buy a new one
Break that one in
Throw it away
A new one
And so on
Why does it go the other way
Why can’t this one be tossed
Why is Brocken in
And then it becomes garbage
And then it’s handed to the next person
Already broken in
Only to br...
Why does it always attack
Why can’t I ever fight back
It always takes me over
Pulling my heart to the floor
Feeling empty and sad
But really there’s nothing bad
It’s still just pulls me down
why would a reason be needed
Dragged to the floor
Happiness always stored
My heart always frowning
Sad and lost and lonely
I hate this thing that is me
As messed up as can be
Nothing smart in its head
A sha...
Surrounded by reasons
So much to fight
What do I do
If everything is right
Falling and falling
I just can’t get up
They ask if I’m okay
All I can say is yup
Nobody sees
Nobody will listen
How everything is wrong
No in horrible condition
But tied in the ground
No way to be happy
I’ve been taken
I just want to be free...