my life is untrue.

stirring and writhing.

choking and screaming.

bruises and cuts.

broken plates, bowls, cups.

dare i stare at a bright light,

shining inside, glistening off my skin.

dare i cusp my hands, interlock my fingers.

snatch the light and throw it on my face.

loudly smiling, i do.

smelling the crisp, strong spring air with closed eyes.

imagining the sweet floral scent of the flowers

heari...

did i cross the line?

does my mind decieve me?

i feel i am unreal, my emotions.

my emotions faded into blurs

blurs, slurs, the feeling of drunkenness.

drunkenness.

falling and vomiting and giggling.

giggling sounding like hisses and screeches

giggling unleashing my inner venom.

venom i spew, to infect, to poison, to kill, to hurt.

did i cross the line?

have u disappointed my mother? my father?

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