slowly a fog descends over the view like a mist spreading over the morning dew then the sky goes black as it cries and screams and the crystal spheres stream the sky was upset about something down below something no one will ever know yet through its tears grows a clarity that despite the pain earth will live to make the sky cry once again
it’s days like these where instead of furrowing my brows at the world i instead appreciate the fact and i am here at all surrounded by such greatness
what happens at the fire stays at the fire we said but i wish the world had what we had what we had under those stars fulfillment, satisfaction, joy
laughing as we dance with the law what could hold us back from freedom? nothing but the songs and dancing and smiles my cheeks still hurt but it’s a happy pain like roasted marshmallows that burn your tongue
returning back seems daunting but after that i know i can do anything it seems cliche, but i’m so happy i have you guys in my life <3
flirting is easy, until it gets real you ask me out like its no big deal you‘re pretty, kind, smart and funny when you smile, the room goes sunny
still i hesitate, is this really for the best do i like you, or does it feel like a test? how can you like me - of all the people out there? somehow, that just doesn‘t seem fair
then i messed up, said something i shouldn‘t have said you were upset, and something within me fell dead no, this was important now and i would fix it somehow
now i knew i wanted to be yours still the fear gave me pause slowly, we‘ll figure it out, ok? i just feel like such a display
today we rode our bikes around talked and laughed and hugged at the playground i feel the butterflies fluttering and the blush on my cheeks yes, this is what my heart seeks
i wan‘t to feel, i want to know i want to love, i want to grow old with you if you do too
in the heart of the city, under the neon lights, our paths crossed, igniting endless nights like fireworks that outshine the busy city that’s how my heart feels when i look at her the glitter in her eyes, the laughter in her smile windswept hair and an intelligence beyond the imagination the way my heart flutter like a butterfly like the butterflies in my stomach, shaking the ground under me i’m so unfamiliar to this world what do i say? what do i do? i want to embrace her and hold her while she talks, while she laughs, while she cries and i pat her through her sobs and my own tears yes, i feel hopeful like the fireworks in the sky no need to think of the aimlessky floating embers left behind not today
i close my eyes and take a deep breath count… 1… 2…3 i open them, but all i see is red searing, burning red i need to get a grip
he always makes me feel like this my heart races and my hands shake why am i so emotional? my pulse quickens as he meets my eyes i can’t handle it anymore
“hey, steph” no i can’t the way he says my name i raise my arms it could be a punch or an embrace but i don’t find out because he turns to head to class my cheeks burn my legs shake
i cringe but, that could have gone much worse
when i open my eyes i see red when i close them i see pitch black
when i listen i hear screaming, thunder silence
when i taste i taste salt sweat blood
when i feel i feel stone solid, sharp cold
yet when i open my heart i see light i hear the birds sing i taste her mouth on mine i feel loved i am whole
when life gives you lemons make lemonade sell it for profit so you can make money to buy food and save
over and over and over all this energy put into an end of life holiday where your bones will creak as you sit and knit alone
why overcompensate the time you could be spending enjoying life only to enjoy life less? when it ‘matters’ when does it truly matter?
is it when the time comes to sit alone in that retirement home with other who share the wish that they had lived a fulfilling life? where they were gifted lemons made lemonade and simply drank it?
bang, bang, BANG hands over ears why is it so loud? "Open your eyes, Darling" mama takes my hands wow... so many rainbows in the sky! but so loud... my breathing shakes and i sniff my runny nose "loud mama" mama smiles with pretty teeth and covers my ears the rainbows pop and glitter "Those are fireworks, Sweetie." fire works! "f-fire?" "Good fire" "pretty fire"
