Waiting,believing,receiving
ANGER HATRED FEAR
Hoping,trusting,breathing
PAIN DREAD APPREHENSION
Letting go letting flow letting god
DISBELIEF MISTRUST CLENCHED JAW
Wait and see,what is meant for you will come to you,just be
IM SO SCARED YOU ALWAYS DO THIS TO ME!
It will happen when it happens,you will breathe again
IM SO ANGRY AND I DONT WANT TO PRETEND
What will be will be
IT ...
All the gifts
That warm eyes soft looking at you smile
Laughing
Not even having to say a word
People,the people giving me that look,like I’m a cute puppy dog,because they know I like you and they like you too
The care of choosing the right words,the words that won’t ever hurt you
Vulnerable
Comfortable
Real...
I didn’t ask to be born,the pain in me is present today,empty,hollow,crippled over,dirt.
Explode is something I never do,implode alone,crying out to you but I don’t want you to hear,muffled me.
Generational trauma,life on a knifes edge. I need safety,something you could never give.
I want to talk but I’m not able to be heard,alone always
When you were young your parents broke you
When I ...
Only in hindsight do I see the chain of events
The temptation was there
They say it isn’t as bad this way, I can have my vice and feel good about it.
What you said changed my tune, I didn’t talk to you all day. You made me feel what I was trying to push away. Its crazy what you can believe when you are hearing what you want them to say.
The descriptions you used made me know i was still hurt...
(Not easy to write,possibly not easy for you to read,this is not light hearted and centre’s on themes of abuse)
Tears wash away the pain,an emotional river running down my cheeks, the pain you don’t see,when I’m home alone and I can let it all go
Flow away from me.
Into the ugly cry we go,snot running,tissues everywhere, I don’t even want to look in the mirror at me,puffy face,red hot nose.
...
I didn’t expect the windows to fog up but my breath was making the air warm inside my car with all the windows closed.
I really didn’t feel safe but at least I had some shelter and my doors were locked.
Mum bought me this car I really wanted,I couldn’t stop her and I am really grateful.
I wonder what she would think if she knew now that I was spending the night cuddled up in my own arms on the...
On stage they all flow so free,its easy,I can see,for everyone…..but me!
I have never been able to flow so easily
I never got the script,or even knew there was one.
I hear the words come out their mouths so confident and assured,their body language matches what they say,expression happening everyday. Life is a stage
Its not so easy for me, I expect I look just like them and I want to sound li...
Miss live and let live
Live and let die
I always give
Buddy I don’t really care what your problem is
My hands so soft it hurt to pray
Two decades talking to Jesus,
that was the first time I heard him talk back
Up until then we didn’t know anyone in the world would celebrate us.
I could feel hope travelling backward to find us
I do it for the joy it brings
Because I’m a joyful gi...
I love how open you are,willing to get hurt.
You allowed me in,a stranger but you were willing to begin.
A new chapter
Friends.
People watch us and they talk,its clear we get along
Broken
I feel your pain,literally feel it,
I just know by now if I’m crying inside,you are too
Emotional jinx you called it
Now I just know.
I don’t even have to contact you
I do though
Because I want to make...
