If wishes fell like rain Then certainly I am the storm Because this distance brings me pain And this time needs transformed

My only wish is to kiss you beneath the perfect sky How I long to touch you To hold your body close to mine

Not having you here with me Is tearing me up inside But I can’t stop thinking about you No matter how hard I try

Will my heart be content with the idea of loving you from afar Will my mind find peace in the reality That we see the same stars

Or will this prodigious idea Fade along with time Making you become a stranger That lives deep inside my mind

The darkness was my friend So I didn’t fight for the light I trapped myself in this room Deep in my mind

I boarded up the windows And locked all the doors Because if I let myself out Then my heart would be torn

So I sat in the darkened room With out a worry nor a care For this was my safe place When my mind took me here

The outside world was scary And full of endless pain I was fine being here Where no one knew my name

Maybe it was my trauma That drew me here Or maybe I just built this place To escape all my fears

I could stay here forever Withdrawal from reality But I have to go back To the world that surrounds me

So this is goodbye To my friend of the dark Maybe one day I’ll gain back my spark

I saw you from a distance Your stare gazing at the sky You seemed so kind and gentle Like you were at peace with your life

From our first interaction I fell in love with your eyes The passion behind them Let me see into your mind

Are bond soon grew Stronger each day It made me thankful to have you In every single way

You were an open ear Who listened to my ways A shoulder to lean on When I was at the end of my days

I could tell you everything Spill to you my soul And I took that for granted For it was my heart that you stole

And when you left I soon realized That I was missing something here Someone to stand by my side

I tried to keep in contact Talk to you once in a while Tell you details about my life How I put my heart on trial

I had to tell you how I felt Even if I didn’t know how I knew I’d regret it If I didn’t say it right now

You’re more than just my friend Who I can spill my thoughts to And now I think that I may have always loved you

He was my best friend Someone to whom I could rely on Our love burned with purpose But he was a waterfowl and I was a swan

I loved him deeply And I knew that we made sense But I never felt an everlasting passion Whence I was alone with him

Late night drives And afternoon chats How could I not want him How could I’ve not wanted it to last

Even if I had loved him He was never the one It was a bonded friendship That was just meant for fun

Yet he still means something To my heart and to me So how could I keep this secret From him, you see

How could I tell him That I was destined for another How could I tell him That I’m in love with his brother

When I think about my life The thought consumes my mind My emotions start to take a turn And tears start to fill my eyes

What if I can’t reach my dream What if it’s not within my reach Is my destiny meant to fail Will rage echo off my screams

My senses flare at the idea And I start to no longer feel secure It’s not fear that I smell, it’s future And the pain that I may endure

For if my future isn’t this longing dream Then my purpose will disappear Soon I’ll be a disappointment I’ll have no plan for a future career

At the same time my future May be the most amazing possibility I could serve the world I live in And make everyone proud of me

I could travel the world see all it’s greatness in awe I won’t have to worry about expenses And I won’t have to ever face my flaws

Torn between two endless possibilities If I jump now, will I fly or simply fall Will I become blind to Gods voice Or will I forever heed his call

I won’t ever no the answer Unless I continue to move on with my dream So that I can find strength Within the hope of my favorite possibility

Why love someone When they make you lost Why give your heart away When it comes with a cost

Why give up your dreams When you worked so hard Why let them hear your screams When they break your heart

You have to leave them Before you become miserable They act like they love you But you’ll soon become invisible

Become bitter and angry So you can protect your heart From bleeding red Into the dark

Don’t fall for their tricks Or they’ll catch you again become someone cruel So they’ll always regret

What they did to you…

It was a doubtful truth That they tried to spread But instantly after I heard it I had wish that I was dead

As I read the words That you sent to my phone Pain struck my heart And I started to feel alone

Why would he say Those cruel lies to you How could you listen And ask if they were true

My body was clean Untouched by man But then he called me a slut And you listened to him

That rumor still haunts me To this very day I wish I had never heard those lies And I wish they’d go away

I wish that all these people Would only say the truth And not spread rumors About me and you

This would is full of light And well worth living

[This place is filled with fear And never stops spinning]

We are all at peace And grateful for everyday

[Yet we never stop fighting In every single way]

Why are you so angry With the world we live in now

[Because is filled with hopeful dreams That become destroyed by doubt]

Then why don’t you leave Why not just run away

[Because if I run This life haunt me everyday]

Maybe this world isn’t as bad as you think

[Then why do I get nightmares Instead of dreams]

I simply do not see this world as you truly do

[Then don’t question my perspective Or try to lighten my mood]

Why did you fall From heaven above I asked the devil With a heart full of love

Because it is not As good as it seems He looked up with sorrow And said softly to me

At first it is happy And full of light But then you feel lost Without the value of a fight

For if there’s no darkness The stars won’t shine And if there’s no hurt Then there’s no thankful of mind

So I took a chance And left that hopeful place Even when I knew I’d become a well known disgrace

But now I’m evil And filled with hate For this world is cruel And now it’s too late

I soon realized There’s no middle ground You can run from that feeling But by that feeling you are bound

You can hope for peace in heaven But it will never come You can pray for a better reality But pain will never give up

I heard his words And understood his fate For we may want to rectify But in the end it’s too late

I dreamt of supremacy and hard work to come Imagined an unconscious fate And wondered if my fighting was done

I floundered over love and it’s constant comfort Felt warmth within his arms And emotions for each other

I set goals for a future to achieve a great honor Pushed beyond all limits And became a wondrous scholar

I found hope within a thought to become the best Relied on my knowledge And dealt with the rest

I cried endless tears of emotional pain Worked hard on myself And put my past away

Suddenly my dreams were all coming true I had been assigned to a destiny That I had always wanted to pursue

So finally I looked up and started to feel That my childhood was coming to an end And it was all becoming real