Day 1: Honestly this feels a little pathetic But this is the only way I’ll see you again Have to keep this hidden because nobody else will get it 5 months is up, I cannot pretend. Day 4: Could not spot you through the neighborhood trees I don’t even know which house is yours One of these days you’ll see me And we will finally turn into more. Day 9: I’m losing hope in this plan I’m losing hope in us The search was over before it even began When I texted, you left me on seen so I think there’s nothing more to discuss. Day 13: (last day) I’m tired and cold and out of pride I told you I never wanted to see you again and I lied This game is up, my plan was fooled The fate in my mind was overruled I walk to the coffee shop instead And write down everything i’m feeling in my head I hate you, I need you, you’re my rose But I hope that you’re happy, wouldn’t want to impose The chai didn’t do much to help my heart I need to give up, press rewind and skip start But walking home I look for you in every car You may be 3 minutes away but you still feel so far No! No! Not you at all, God why did you have to make me fall?

My half broken bed feels a little more beaten The frigidity of the air feels like home, When the rustic autumn leaves disappear under the new season And I start to feel more alone. The frigidity of the air feels like home Forget warm cocoa and Christmas lights And I start to feel more alone, Because of the shorter days feel like longer nights. Forget warm cocoa and Christmas lights Chestnuts envelop my senses with song Because of the shorter days and longer nights I hate the winter, where has the sun gone?

Life without you smells boring It reeks of vanilla and empty words Without your bittersweet looks or foul play Or indescribable complexity that falls short of the bare minimum Life without you tastes empty Like your ways of showing me you love me On the tops of my tongue it tastes exactly like what I imagine promises do Life without you feels light And sweet And airy You complete me you are apart of me and always will be Why is it so difficult? Like something that will lift weight off of my shoulders But would weigh down my heart Life without you sounds reasonable None of my friends like you why should i? I don’t even like you sometimes so I call you my greatest lie Why? Life without you seems unsatisfactory Sweet Refreshing Morbid Life without you is normal I’ve been living without you for so long Life without you is normal So why does it always feel so wrong? Feeling Never knowing Or tasting Or smelling Or touching Or hearing life without you is senseless.