cold days.

time feels fast, yet slow.

people seem to slowly change.

i’ve started realizing the small changes, or maybe changes that have always existed yet i’ve never found them so somehow strange.

everyone seems to have become monotonous.

my neighbor Anna, with her strawberry blonde curls and big blue eyes, her unique sense of humor and patience is slowly turning into something i’ve never seen f...

the burning fire stood ahead of us.

heat glazed at my face, making me choke out a cough.

I for myself never wanted or thought this would happen.

it was an hour earlier the smell of smoke hit my nose, i felt the smell travel closer and closer.

i ran to my door pleading to find out what was going on.

my door was shut and unable to open due to it swelling, i was banging and yelling trying to force...

if only the moon didn’t shine through, sparkle above the stars.

if only, all the stars in the sky, the sun and moon.

saw us in this big world just the way you and i, if only.

you were my sun, who brought me the light.

made my heart shine like the stars, made me feel things all just right.

but now, i am your moon.

i’ve brought you the glimpse of all serenity.

small glimpses no soul can escape...

i’ve left.

and i don’t think you ever noticed.

i’ve went missing.

no, you’re not gonna see me in a milk carton with my height and weight on it.

i’ve left, i’m gone.

gone in the sorts of myself.

you can still see me, you can still see my dark blue eyes and dark brunette curls.

you’ll still be able to hear me talk, and maybe you’ll focus in and realize i don’t laugh.

maybe you’ll look at me and...

death follows us.

living isn’t always easy.

loosing our one life because of the shadow of death that creeps over you, thoughts that may take over to your mind.

don’t give in.

the thoughts, the sensations, the scenarios, the memories, the tears we shed from this.

don’t.

give.

in.

we think its easy to stay steady like a stream of silk flying in the wind.

we have new days, new starts one day it may...

once felt so light.

once felt so happy, felt peaceful and innocent just learning to see the colors of life

once felt so pure. once met you

once met you, once gave the innocence and pureness, the lightness to you, so you could feel some sort of light too

once never felt so out of light before

once had never felt the colors disintegrate to darkness

once saw the colors, once saw the light.

...

i used to find no light, nor flowers. i used to not understand what it felt to posses one. i used to find myself alone and safe. but not protected safe, i felt protecting myself from trying to escape from this safe. i thought safety was to hide from finding the light and the flowers.

the thing is.. i want to try and see the light in life when i have once so pure, peaceful and beautiful it was so ...

Fear, fear never left me; it was an icy cold hand that held me hostage in a tight forceful grip. It felt like a thousand needles were pricking into me, my heart as always shuddering in my chest.

Fear is a dark presence, with its eyes black and always hidden, yet you might not see it's there. It is like a type of blackness that hides in the corner of your eye.

when I sense fear, it gets cold, c...

“Your time is up. Better run!” I hear my older sister yell.

As I curl behind a tree peaking my small head out to see where she is. As she cluelessly looks around.

I breath in the summery breeze. The hot sun shines onto my overalls. And onto my sweaty small face.

I twirl around my small pigtails mommy did for me. Twisting them around my small stubby fingers.

I quickly peak my head back as I see ...

Daniella glances at me and nods.

As my heart is pumping faster then ever.

We jump.

A giant tummy lifter comes.

As Daniella yells to turn it on.

Daniella’s has turned into a parachute.

But mine stays the same.

As much as I click it.

I start trying to get it to work in the sequential seconds ahead of me.

I’m nearly on the ground.

I brace for it.

My time is done.

Then I stare down just giving up...