There are certain things to shy away from

Once things are said and done

Any shows we’ve watched together

Any places that we’ve gone

The people that I met through you

Erased in every way

The memories that haunt me

All the reminders kept at bay.

But every just so often

I’ll try to push myself through

Driving past where we lived together

The life we tried to build

And every just so often

A sho...

So many thoughts. Email notifications. Meeting and task reminders. Unmet desires. No time for anything, when overwhelmed by everything.

I close my laptop and lay back on my bed. Close my eyes and try to clear my mind. An ambitious thought of meditating. I grab my phone, as if to open my guided meditation app, and go immediately to Instagram instead.

I scroll through the posts. The stories. The r...

I looked through old pictures last night

And I cried

Or moreso

The crying took me

Deep, heavy, sobbing came out of me

My face contorted

The tears pouring down my face

Seeing the photos of you and me

Where your eyes look so sweet

I can still feel your soft little kisses on my lips

And the little smile you gave me

After a sweet little kiss

It tore through me

Gasping

Breaths with no oxygen

I couldn’t...