I hate that my brother and his wife had to go through this,but I understand God makes no mistakes.

But that’s something you have to let people find on their own in a time like now .the last thing i wanted to do was hurt Megan’s feeling. So I just said I’m sorry your going through this and listen as they both cried and talked about how perfect their baby boy was.

He had been in the Niue for the f...

I spent years of my life living in the shadows of my big brother he was always the coolest guy I knew.

And everyone else loved him just as much as I did.

And when I say “did” I meant that

When I was about 15 my big brother went off to college we’d talk on the phone everyday.

One day I noticed I hadn’t talked to my brother

So I called and didn’t get an answer

Instead, I got the voicemail.

...

Dame….

What am I to do ??

I have to go tell them by 2

And it’s already 1 30

How do I say

God took your son early

And he was only 3

I’m just the doctor

But everybody

Going to be mad at me

Thinking what I’m gone do??

Now it’s a quarter to 2

This ain’t something they taught us in school ....

I was over it all

Daniel, what’s a good father but a bad husband

And we tried to keep our family together, but the toxicity took over. For many years I lay there unhappy wanting something different and today I finally got the courage to let him know that I was

Unhappy

After 12 years with the same person you start to lose everything about yourself. See me and Daniel did everything togethe...

When I woke up

There was no TV

No dresser no nice clothes or anything else

That was in my room at home. I was greeted by a man with a deep voice and a blue shirt and black pants on.

Count time mother fucker

He said as he opened the door to this new and unfamiliar place

I wasn’t sure what I was to do

Or if I was dreaming or not

Then he said it again

Get the fuck out here, it’s count t...

I remember love had me couldn’t sleep

And not wanting to eat

So fixated on loving her I couldn’t think about anything else given her all the love even the one I kept for myself

Then she said she needed a break

That was all the time I needed to become awake...

Would be messed up

Had I not found you I wouldn’t know love

All the shit that we’ve been through

The battles we won

Life without you

would be

Like the earth with no sun……..

Landus Smith -TheDude...