I wonder what it feels like to relax
I wonder what it feels like to be content
I wonder how life could be
Without the constant worry
The constant overthinking
The unnecessary stress I bring upon myself
My mind is always active
Actively worrying
My body is tense
Tensely apprehensive
I worry until I make myself sick
I worry until I make everyone around me sick
But for just one day
Even fo...
She doesn’t look like me. She doesn’t sound like me. Why is she touching him? Why is she kissing him? Why is he kissing her? Oh my god. I know who it is, it’s her, it can’t be, please god no don’t let it be. She’s telling him she’s always loved him, he tells her the same. They embrace, they reminisce, they look deeply at each other…
I feel like I’ve woken up from an electric shock. My heart is p...
I am on the floor. No, literally on the floor. I can’t breathe and I’m clutching onto my stomach. My stomach feels like I’ve done a million crunches all at once and my stomach muscles are starting to spasm. But I can’t stop smiling, my cheeks are hurting, I haven’t done this in a while. The strangest noises are escaping my mouth, is something wrong with me? It feels abnormal but I don’t care, i’m ...
How often are we simply at one with nature?
How often do we allow nature to be at one with us?
As I breathe in natures wild air
As the breeze trickles alongside me
As I hear the bird song in the tree above me echo all around me
My eyes grow my heavy
So does my body
My fingers trace along the luscious grass beneath me
I took a moment
And so should you
I look after nature
And I know natur...
Let’s play a game shall we?
Games are fun right?
Let’s start by counting down from three
One…
Is there something wrong?
You look scared?
We are just playing a game?
Games are fun…right?
Two…
I know it’s just us two in this room
This game only requires two players
Games are fun…right?
Oh dear, what happened to the lights?
There is no need to be scared
What’s so scary about darkness?
Not...
Never again do I allow my body to shut down
Never again do I allow pain to swallow my body whole
Never again do I stoop so low
Never again do I reach for the easiest way out
Never again do I allow myself to imprison my mind
Never again do I press that potentially fatal bottle to my lips…
Never. Again....
I have a devil on one shoulder
An angel on the other
I am so indecisive
Who will save me?
Fire or ice?
Who will talk sense into me?
The angel or the devil?
I am not evil
Yet I am not an angel
I find myself in a difficult situation
One which I have to protect and defend myself
How can I do that by being kind?
How will I ever be heard?
But yet how can I ever expect to get far when I am ...
Sometimes the only way to really forget everything is to go to sleep.
Even though it’s only for a few hours, I disconnect, I unplug myself from reality, from everyone and everything. I feel like a dark, heavy cloud is raining over me and only me. The rain droplets scald my skin and it soaks every bone in my body.
My body feels limp and numb, lifeless. Everything is too much effort. Breathing, b...
