We’ve been through so much.

We’ve been to hell and back again,

But we made it.

When one of us collapsed,

The other would set them back on their feet.

Sometimes the collapse was an inflicted wound,

But we would apologize and try to fix it.

We’ve fought,

We’ve bickered,

But we made it.

Even when the ground started to shake,

Even when I questioned us,

Even when I wondered if this was really working,

We made it.

And then…_this_?

This of all things?

What the hell?

That’s really what made you think I was too much?

Really?

Or maybe this was just the final straw.

Maybe it wasn’t just this.

Maybe it was the fact I’m annoying,

I’m selfish,

I’m arrogant,

I’m insensitive,

I’m impulsive,

I’m cruel,

_And_ this.

Maybe you finally realized who I am.

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And now we’re destroyed.

The mountain we built has crumbled,

The castles of love and hope are burning.

I’m on my knees, holding the ashes.

In time, the wind will blow it away.

In time, the earth will reclaim the ruin.

In time, it will seem as though we never existed at all.

But not to me.

On the outside, maybe I’ll seem okay.

Maybe it’ll appear that I let time steal the memories from me.

But in the inside,

I’ll still be a shattered, broken ruin.

I gave you a part of me.

That mountain that so easily crumbled?

I put my strength, my courage, my determination into it.

Those castles that so easily burned?

I put my love, my hope, my will to live into them.

And now I’m empty,

Destroyed like the things we built.

Maybe this is what I deserve.

You always told me I was bad for your mental health.

But I thought we were doing better lately.

I thought it was getting easier.

I thought we were okay.

I thought, I thought, I thought.

I had this coming, of course.

I did this to you once,

Now it’s your turn to do it to me.

I just wish I’d known.

I wish it hadn’t been so sudden.

I wish it hadn’t happened at all.

I wish, I wish, I wish.