it all started with a rumour. i loved my boyfriend so much, i would do anything for him and i thought he would do the same thing. the key word there is loved. past tense. people spread around rumours saying he was a player, he was cheating on me. of course i didnt believe it, he loved me. right? wrong. he was cheating on me, with a girl who was prettier then me, funner then me, apparently better then me. i cried for a while wondering how i woukd go on. then i realized he was a jerk who broke my heart. but now i have come to realize, i shoukd be mad, i shoukd be sad but its okay. it made me realize that he wasnt the one for me. that was okay because one day ill find the one who will treat me like a princess, who will love me more then i love him. thats all i want, us that too much to ask? im just a teenager after all. i have plenty of time right? i just want to experience teenage love before i run out of time. i will try to be patient, be kind and loving. i will try not to care when things dont work out. but the truth is i’ll always be a little hurt under this smile. and thats okay.

rumours spread. they enhance. most rumours arent true, theyre cruel lies. this one was true. it wasnt a cruel lie, it was just cruel. and no matter how much i wish it was just a cruel lie. it wasnt. and eventually i had to accept that and ultimately grew because of it. i learned that someday i will be someones whole world and they will be mine ❤️ the time will come.