So basically, I want to believe that me and this person can workout but the lies cut deep, on his end. This week, I didn’t answer the phone because I was asleep and now he thinks I was with someone else. I’m playing it cool but the way he’s acting is starting to blow me. The thing is, I don’t want to leave him but I will if this can’t be reconciled. Today, he said that we were going to be together, I know the Super Bowl is coming on but he has to still keep his word. If he chooses to not text me all day, ignore me, and not be around then I’m just going to leave because I don’t have a reason to lie to him.

Funny how being honest gets met with anger and deception. I don’t have a reason to lie to him. I don’t want to leave him but I have a lot to focus on throughout the week, screaming everyday isn’t it. I proved to him what happened with my phone, if that’s not enough then idk. I don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t trust me. I get tired of always having to prove myself. Leaving is easy, staying is hard. I’m really trying to stay by his side because I do love him.