Why do I always come running back to you

There’s just no escaping you

I know that you’re a part of me

But you’re so toxic you’ve scarred me deep

And just when I feel like I can be alright for a second

I’m right back to where I’ve been

With no distance gained

Just figments of my imagination

Look up to the sky and ask god what is this cruel game

Why’d he give me this fucked up brain

Filled with nothing but demons to keep me company

Been told if I can just recognize and want change

then I can start the healing and move away from this dark place

Yet there’s no guarantee I won’t come back some day

So I don’t feel any assurance that I’m not just getting played

Fear is such a dangerous thing

The way it cripples you and eats away your confidence

Just hope one day I could maybe escape

Without anxious thoughts telling me it isn’t safe and impossible