Was a place, Then a name. In you came, With that beautiful face.

was a flat, Then a person. With which I watched the setting sun, Together we sat.

Was it true, That it was us. Who built this trust, So the home was you.

…

Love you baby 🖤

The feeling has returned, The nostalgic dread again weighs me down, And I am drowning d r o w i n g. I cannot reach above, nor do I want to. I will sink in this darkness, Let the pain fill my lungs. I wish I could forget this feeling; I wish it never returned. But, alas, I must endure it again, only this time I will not hope that happiness will ever return.

Broken hearted from the start, but you’re acting kinda smart. It’d be better if we’re apart cause I was broken from the start.

I will see it, I will grow. But deep down I will always know, this wound will never close. I will hurt you, then you’ll go.

You can see it in my eyes, you can read through all my lies. I’ve been broken all this time, you can see it in my eyes.

And then I’ll end up all alone. It’s a fate I’ve always known. Broken hearted from the start It’s better now that we’re apart.

Standards to never be met And too ridiculous to expect.

Paths predetermined But never prewilled by the doer.

Life is fragile yet so fulfilled.

Simpler times were meant for me. Simpler times were meant for this.

Not “perfect bodies”, salaries, and accolades out the wazoo.

But pretty imperfect moments made by imperfect people to make memories.

Are people crap sometimes yeah, Do they mess up sometimes, Maybe even a lot. Mmhmm

But it's just like that Moment, Maybe even now. But a time when brightness shined brightly on everyone.

Your eyes deeming everyone innocent till guilty.

Eyes that give yourself a chance before saying no.

Eyes that don't let go of something so precious so quickly.

Holding on to that toy, feather, friend, family, experience, or hobby, a little longer.

I've been, and so many others have had a lot.

Know better do better always, But don't “know more”, and frail away,

🦋~ for that will only perish who you truly are.

there’s an angel on earth (an impartial observer) come to witness the folly of humanity to watch, unsleeping, unbreathing, unliving (it forgets itself) it sees the dapple of light through leaves and the rippling of fresh river water and (it forgets itself). it goes to sleep.

she wakes up to an unbearable weight. the world itself sits on her chest and calls her to the stand, in a court of outdated history, the judge bears a gavel of convention and the jury hides behind masks of tradition, they deem her unworthy. millions of eyes open (millions of eyes close) she does not want to see.

she wakes up to blood staining the sheets, buried deep under her nails, flushed down an unsympathetic toilet, she takes a pill to dull the pain. she takes a pill to dull the pain. she takes a pill to dull the pain. her mind writhes and seethes but she must remain emotionless. in the mirror her halo drips red.

she wakes up empty, her shadow screams in anguish (something is missing) her mouth doesn’t move. she makes no sound. to be human is to be holy. (to be human is to be forsaken)

(where are her wings?) (where are her wings?) (where are her wings?)

it will never fly again

(alpas [v.]- to become free; to break loose)

there’s an angel on earth (an impartial observer) come to witness the folly of humanity to watch, unsleeping, unbreathing, unliving

(it forgets itself)

it sees the dapple of light through leaves and the rippling of fresh river water and (it forgets itself). it goes to sleep.

she wakes up to an unbearable weight. the world itself sits on her chest, calls her to the stand, in a court of outdated history, the judge bears a gavel made of convention and the jury hides behind masks of tradition, they deem her unworthy. millions of eyes open (millions of eyes close) she does not want to see.

she wakes up to blood staining the sheets, buried deep underneath her nails, flushed down the unsympathetic toilet. she takes a pill to dull the pain. she takes a pill to dull the pain. she takes a pill to dull the pain. her mind writhes and seethes but she must remain emotionless. in the mirror her halo drips red.

she wakes up empty, her shadow screams in anguish (something is missing) her mouth doesn’t move. she makes no sound. to be human is to be holy. (to be human is to be forsaken)

(where are her wings?) (where are her wings?) (where are her wings?)

it will never fly again

(alpas [v.]- to become free, to break loose)

You’ve been gone far too long It’s time to come back Climb that hill Get back to the top To who you are And should be Who you never should have stopped being Who you you were meant to be And never let anyone take that away from you Ever again.

It’s been six months since you asked, “Will you be mine?” How far we have come, In what little of time.

You brought me a flower, Its color was blue. So simple, yet precious. And what came next, I had no clue.

We’ve danced, we’ve laughed. We’ve hugged, we’ve cried. And we’ll always be here, Where our love has never died.

I leave For the first time. It’s New Years Eve, And you both come To say goodbye. Even though it’s Michigan, And December, And six AM, And your twelfth birthday.

I’m gone For four months. We text each other Every single day, And play Roblox together. It’s great, but I can’t see you. And then I text you all: My parents have bought A house. In Florida.

But I come back, And you all come To say hello When I get home. Come running out To my backyard Screaming, hugging me And lifting me off my feet. You even share your sandwich.

I leave again Seven months later. And no one comes To say goodbye. But after all, It is Michigan, And November. And you all text me While I’m driving away.

I come back Six months later. A whole half a year. And no one is there To greet me, But you say “We’re at her house. Come join us!” And so I go.

I leave again, Three months later. Do you come to say goodbye this time? I don’t remember. I can’t remember. But I leave, After a great summer. Was it great?

It’s July When I come back. And there is no one. You all text me “I’m with friends. I’ll see you tomorrow.” And you do, But only for Fifteen minutes.

When I leave again, After only a month, There is no one To watch me go. I don’t know What happened. Was it me? I just leave again With my heart breaking.

She spilled out the secrets That night on their bed He heard all her scars Inside of her head

He heard horrid moments She wished to forget She never told a soul

For a safe place… She hadn’t met yet

He heard of the years All the innocence He stole From the woman he loved How it took its toll

Just a little girl with a story She needed to tell She laid out before him What Created her shell

Kept it inside Too much pain But no one was safe For 20 whole years it stayed

For 20 whole years It played On and on Repeat

Having no one who knew The magnitude

20 whole years Pushing it at bay

Praying and hoping Hoping and praying It would just go away

But who could she trust? To all who just lust

She thought so surely She’d never get to tell

And if she ever did Certainly not to a male

But then came him Right into her life A heart so worthy Of purest formed light

She swore God sent him Straight from heaven above The first man The first time She’d ever made and felt love

He held her hand So genuine it seemed He uttered words she couldn’t believe

“Tell me. What do you need?”

She broke down the visuals Right down to her core Of what caused those night terrors Hes woke her from before

Such a man so worthy Good right down to his bones Challenged every single fear She’d forever hold him dear

She wouldnt have shared this
To any one but him

As he pushed through the horror Just to support her He sat by her side As her inner child cried

Unwavering He did not run Oh that deep dark healing night As his eyes held onto hers so tight

Tears began rolling down his cheek Still there He touched her arm Her silenced child Continued to speak

No inturuptions

Just

“What do you need?”

She just

Could

Not

Believe

She never thought this day would come to be So vulnerable So healing So beautiful So free

As the child within ended Of those dark nights in hell She sat there fightened As she asked herself

Would he see me the same Would he still stay Would I blame If he walked away

He never bat and eye No he never moved an inch As the woman he loved came back He didn’t even flinch

His reply It came It uttered 3 words

“Im so sorry.”

His eyes so pure With his care for her No he didnt run But instead He held her

An unwordly feeling For that little girl inside Feeling embrace A safe place For the very first time

She hugged him back While in his touch I did it She said Thank you so SO much

From that moment on She knew nothing other Their love would overcome Any endeavor After this night She met

Mr. Keep her safe forever

This man unlike any man she had ever known Was the best person Her person God had surely shown

Her head on his chest Praying Thanking God for a man Above all the rest

Fast forward months later Havent spoke in a month

And finally it happened He came back around She had hoped he’d finally seen That a love like theirs It could never be found

Fast forward days later They’re right back in time Dancing And twirling As if no goodbye

Here was the man Who shed never neglect For he was the first one To ever show her respect

The nights filled with laughter So hard that they’d cry Each ending with words Other than goodbye

With who she once shared a moment That life changing moment

She’ll never forget Of the night she met

Mr. Keep her safe forever

There it was Tattooed Her skin A reminder of a night She let a man in

A reminder Of the man she so very missed Promised of a place Only he would ever kiss So he began to kiss That very same spot As she slips into heaven All else forgot

As he took off her clothes Piece by piece Shes thrown back to the moment She’d meet her

Mr. Keep her safe forever

So happy to feel this with

Mr. Keep her safe forever

Now he makes very clear He only her friend There was no more “together” Or at least he’ll pretend

Wait. Wait.

If he has no feelings Of love for me there Then why are we here?! And why are we bare?! It feels so sincere These nights we’ve entranced Twirling and swirling To songs we’ve romanced My head on his shoulder His hand holding mine As together we slow danced Was it all by design?

Friends don’t do the things we’re doing Was I only simply misconstruing?

She wasnt perfect So forgive and forget For it was worth it For him

Mr. Keep her safe-est yet

As he uttered the words

“Before (insert name) shows” . . . . .

“You should probably go…”

Her heart felt that Of escaping her chest She tried not to show Too much to digest She just simply stated

“What time would be best?”

He Still warm in his bed As she picked up the pieces Of the clothes he had shed Thoughts running wild All up in her head She begins to remember The things he had said

“I do not love you anymore.” “No one hurt you as a child. Liar. That never f****** happened.” “You’re the bottom of the barrel” “nasty.”

And more…

“Got nothing to offer.” “You’re just a…

“whhhoor—- NO! NO! He’s sorry! She swore

So she’ll forgive She’ll forget For her

Mr. Keep her safe forever

But we’re just friends All he now claims to be No were just friends All he’ll ever want with me My

Mr. Best friend forever?

So what my “friend?” Was my body easiest to call?

Cut the lights Just a fix For your few lonely nights?

Never said a word Went back Night after night She’d be his best kept secret He’s hidden away For if they all knew Just what would they say All the people with whom He talks and mocks Defaming her name

Oh what a shame Just what would you say

Mr. Keep her safe forever

So she wears the scarlet letter The bond she wouldn’t sever With her very special

Mr. Keep her safe forever

Just like that Without a care Her “friend” he then…

CONTROL

Alt

DELETION

He took all trust in men That she had Had left And now she must now accept… That her

Mr. Keep her safe forever

Now

Mr. Should have never trusted ever

😔