I wish you’d understand the pain it put me through,

The dread that floods my body when I picture her with you.

The blood that leaves my skin then replaced with the painful truth,

If anyone would leave then of course it would be you.

I couldn’t eat for days, I slept 2 hours at best,

Without the tv on, my mind just couldn’t rest,

I’d wake up in the morn and hope it was a dream,

But Facebook doesn’t lie my mind can only scream.

I smashed up all my room, I wouldn’t hear love songs,

My head went round and round instead,

As I thought of all your wrongs,

I felt angry, worthless ugly,

I compared myself with her,

At this point you knew nothing of the things that I refer.

I chose to keep my silence and watch you dig your grave,

I didn’t even recognise the boy I use to crave,

Your nasty, sorry, loving, your messages turn blue,

I start to question everything I ever thought I knew.

I lost the air I breathed when you wanted her not me,

I couldn’t even lie to myself, the truth had witnesses,

Did you really ever mean it when you said I’d be your wife??

That we’d marry and be happy I’d be your girl for life?

But you couldn’t say I love you, I’ll never forget that call,

When you’d “rather have me in your life than prefer to not at all”,

My anger was unmatched id felt no other pain,

My first love only wanted from me what he could gain.