I found myself waiting

Even when I didn’t want to

But didn’t feel like I had a choice in the matter.

Doing anything I could to not watch the clock

Time ticking away so slowly

I could have sworn it stopped.

I didn’t want this -

This feeling of always being second, third, fourth, last…

To whatever else wanted your attention.

I didn’t want to keep waiting

So finally, I didn’t

And found myself.