Looking up at the stars Looking down at my scars I've worked so hard to get this far

Every mark is a reminder Of a time I thought would last forever But I've moved on, no matter the pressure

Whether my heart was heavy or light I've always put up a fight For the moments I thought would last forever

Looking up at the stars Looking down at my scars I want this moment to last forever

The breeze on my cheeks The moon shining bright Sitting on the balcony, looking into the night

It won't last forever, though It's just like a show There are more characters for me to know

All though I don't know what's ahead Instead of drowning, I will tread I refuse to be condemned

Looking up at the stars Looking down at my scars I've come too far, just to come to this far

I feel the days Go on And on They never end And it’s all the same

Amazing one day Terrible the next That’s how life goes

It’s all the same Same classes Same routine Same people

The days go on And time passes Nothing changes And there’s no going back

The past is over What happened Happened You forget it Or remember it Forever

A memory my mind will cherish forever is when me and my grandma where at a park, I looked over to my right to see the most beautiful sparkling reflection beaming off from the water. It was so mesmerizing to look at, I’ve realized that this memory will forever ever be sentimental to me from then and now. Even though my grandma passed away after this memory, to be more precise seven years. I’ve come to live with terms that not everything can stay the way you want them to, but if you move on the more you begin to realize that you don’t need to cry because it’s over, smile because it happened. Every moment I spent with her was a memory I couldn’t remember.

The Pain I went through Is immeasurable Compared to what you put me through My crown of thorns was heavy Not heavy enough for you though You had me, And I have you Nothing could ever stop my heart bleeding out for you My lonelines is like a coat It’s heavy but it’s warm It’s nothing like you If I could get one more thing right That’ll be forever loving you That’s what you wanted right? “All I see is you” Well that’s not true You left me in the cold until I turned blue You made one moment Forever stuck in my head I wish it would fade like the others memories we had I’m okay, I want to vanish like the past So I can forever forget the memories we had I want to be the one you wish you still have

Do you know what love feels like? It fills your heart with butterflies and makes you dizzy with happiness. It makes you feel a warmth you can only get from the fireplace at home on cold winters day. But what if that love were to be unrequited? It’s like all time around you has stooped. The butterflies turn into tiny knifes, cutting you deep and bleeding you dry, but you smile. The happiness is replaced by a sickening nausea, filling your head with an endless throbbing pain. Your mouth once filled with laughter becomes dry and your throat scratchy. Red cheeks become raw and tear stained. Time is flowing around you while you find yourself stuck, a shell of yourself trying to hold on to what you used to be.

School always felt long Everyone at odds We never got along A field trip changed it all At the time it felt so fleeting But now it’s always there The moment we became a family Standing hand in hand That really changed my life It opened up my world But nothing lasts forever And even thought it’s gone That day still lasts forever Always runing through my head Reminding me how easy One’s life can sometimes be

I sit and watch the early morning sunrise. The one after you died. The audacity of the sky to be so full of life and color. Bright orange and pink, ruffled clouds. Birds chirping amongst the trees. Cars passing by like nothing happened. We lost you, but only we knew. The sun rising so slowly, lasting forever. Maybe it was you saying goodbye. The voices around me so dull and empty. Just focused on the beautiful sky.

When you meet the one time stands still Like a bright flower in a dark cave
you feel suspended, a lone bright spot Where everything is dark and you’re focused On the one bright spot Something that can’t be touched Happiness and love the best moments encapsulated everything else in the dark Negativity, hate, hard times drowned out The longest you’ll ever smile Eternity in your heart moments to look back at They never fade

It is the moment Before the last breathe The silence between the last heart beat And the moment of none

It is the moment Where we all must face judgement Not knowing what lays before Only hoping what lays behind was enough

It is the water not boiling Or the clothes not drying It is the endless rainfall Or never ending pile of leaves It is the time between beeps on the microwave Or the timer done on the stove

It is all the moments that seem To last forever When time with you did not.