Flames.
I never realized
Quite how much
One person could do to me.
I never realized
Quite how much
You could do to me.
I have always been a logical person.
My first instinct is to compare, to equate, to explain.
I use my head to look at a problem first.
And then I cast that aside.
I unwillingly turn to my heart,
My heart which is volatile, unpredictable.
My heart which has so much power over me.
My heart which I cannot contain, cannot control.
I turn to my heart.
So when I looked into your eyes,
I saw my future go up in flames.
My mind panicked,
Knowing you would be the end,
Knowing you would take everything I had,
Knowing you would destroy me.
And my heart smiled,
Knowing you would be the beginning,
Knowing you would give me everything,
Knowing you would create me.
So I want to ask my heart,
“Are you happy now?
Is this what you wanted?”
I want to ask my heart,
“Is this enough for you?
Are you done?”
Because my heart was right.
You are the beginning to a long, lonely road.
And maybe fixing me is at the end, maybe it’s useless.
You gave me everything, every knife, every ruin, every broken shard.
And I happily tore myself apart.
You created me, this empty creature.
This empty, hollow, unfeeling mess of a person.
And yet somehow,
Somehow my heart is not finished.
Somehow, this broken ruin of a person still loves you.