longing to talk
romantic silence
when just our eyes talk to each other
looks across busy rooms
knowing we both remember what happened that night
and hope that you won’t forget me
when you call me to say goodnight
praying this isn’t our last goodbye
hoping you’ll text me in the morning without begging you too
knowing i shouldn’t eat
but it comforts me so i do it anyway
i worked out today
and i tell myself this so i can feel better
jealousy,
i have eyes of jealousy
when she walks in the room and you look at her
knowing you used to look at me that way
i know i was your downgrade
but i still hope you miss me sometimes
even if your regretting me at least I’m on your mind
lord knows i think about you everyday almost all the time
i want her hair and i want to be friends with her friends,
i’ve started starving
i tell myself i like the feeling of hunger
but i no longer feel comfort
i see the pain in my own eyes when i look in the mirror
he says that’s his favorite part of me but i hate the vulnerability
laughing gives me wrinkles
so i have stopped laughing
i hate my thighs so i have started cutting them
i tell myself this is heathy
but i know it is not
they only like me for my body
i dont see what they see in me
looking past my personality
and admiring the “outside” beauty
they see me as a hoe
but on the inside i’m broken
constantly getting played
when will they run out of tokens?
he calls me a dime but i like unspoken poetry
when we can recognize the heartbreak that fills within my green eyes
not to dramatize the truth but only to acknowledge it
knowing me for me and not who i am when the sun sets
forget what i was when i was unconscious i wasn’t thinking
i’m sorry i said i loved you when i knew it wasn’t true
forget who i am now i miss when i was apart of you
2 we came in a pair
forget who i was when i was jealous
i haven’t learned to handle my emotions yet
2 we came in a pair
now unspoken guilt flows through the air