Freak of the Matryx

We are 5 of the 24 parts of the Matryx system in the world of Dissociative Identity Disorder

Writings

Followers

Following

Freak of the Matryx

We are 5 of the 24 parts of the Matryx system in the world of Dissociative Identity Disorder

Writings

Followers

Following

Mistakes

Freak of the Matryx

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‘Slap’

That’s for running

‘Slap’

That’s for hiding

He holds her down

Now will you make those mistakes again?

Shaking her head no

Trying not to fall apart

Don’t let him know you’re in pain

For he will never stop

Learned from her mistakes

To never say a word

Never run

Never hide

Stay still, stay quiet

Never make the same mistakes again...

The Girl Who Lived

Freak of the Matryx

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My survival, you inspire me to write

Thinking about our secret

Invades my mind day and through the night

Always dreaming about the abyss

Let me compare you to a dark room

Empty, horrible and mad

Blood all shiny and red

Drip, drip, dripping down our legs

Oh how I loathe you

Let me count the ways

Our body

Tear stained and bleak

To forever falter

There is only illusion

tear stained and torn

Ma...

The Fish

Freak of the Matryx

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The family took a trip to the local Walmart. The little girl was so excited to see the fish. Her mom told her “ we will go see the fish after we get our groceries, okay?” So the little girl waited patiently until she could not be patient anymore. While her parents were shopping an aisle or two away from the fish tanks, the little girl asked her daddy to walk over to them with her. He said “since t...

Ordinary

Freak of the Matryx

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Something so ordinary

Inspires the most beautiful

The most wonderful things in life

Grass looks ordinary

But underneath it's a home

To critters, some unknown...

Living room

Freak of the Matryx

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Wow! There's a spacious living room. I love the open floor plan of the living room, dining room, and kitchen. This is so beautiful. The high ceiling is great. This is so cozy and welcoming!...

Green

Freak of the Matryx

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She is the earth

The earth is her

Each blade of grass

As green as her eyes

My sweet honey bee...

The Girl With Scars

Freak of the Matryx

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“I don't know why. I just couldn't help myself,” she said explaining the new cuts on her arms and legs. “I wanted to feel something, right now I can't feel anything at all.”

Talking to her razor blade she says “why can't I help myself with you? All you do is hurt me!”

She always goes back to the blade. Never stopping. Until one day, she is standing over herself asking what went wrong.

“I just...

We Resent You

Freak of the Matryx

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You hurt us

Why

You scarred us for life

No longer normal

You have no morals

Thanks to you

We are all abnormal

Swirling inside

Residing in hopelessness

We are helpless

All because of you

God damn

You're not a man

Just a bitch

With a tiny d**k...

Innocence

Freak of the Matryx

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She had to grow up too fast

Her innocence did not last

She did not have a choice

Nor did she have a voice

Having to be an adult

Throwing her innocence out,

with a catapult

No more playing

No more silly songs

It’s all over now

Your innocence is forever lost...

My Girl

Freak of the Matryx

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Dark curly hair flows

Her eyes sparkling brightly green

smiling big and sweet

Small toes wiggling

my little short-stack of sweet

one eyebrow raised high

fingers curled around

Eyes closed, smiling while asleep

short legs around mine...