This was during my uni years, I was really struggling at one point with finances. I just had gotten fired from my part-time job and was stressed about making rent. I had a friend at the time, one of those that looks you in the eyes and sees your soul. She would always know when something was up and no amount of bullshit was tolerated. She read me like an open book. On our breaks we would go on the third floor of our uni building and climb out a toilet window on the grim metal fire escape. There, we sat on the cill and smoked cigarettes. We had a wonderful view of the back of the victorian buildings roofs nearby and all their gutters and pipes. It was a wonderful spot to talk. “What’s wrong?” She asked me. I knew there was no point in lying. I had stopped trying to do that months ago. “I got fired and now I’m short on rent money” “Oh, well why don’t you ask your parents for help? Im sure they won’t mind” Now, I do come from a wealthy background, but I was a prideful creature. I had become independent in the past few years and it felt nice. I struggled, but it was good for me mentally. “I don’t want to. I finally broke free, I gained my father’s respect. I want to be independent, I can’t just rely on my safety net like that whenever I want to” She rolled her eyes at me and said the following: “See, darling, when you have food at home, in your fridge, do you go out and spend money on more food, or do you just eat the food at home? It doesn’t make sense to buy more food, because the food at home will go bad and you’ll have to throw it out. Your parents love you and they took the time to fill your fridge. Just let them help you. Everyone struggles occasionally and it’s okay to ask for help when you need it. Now pass me the lither”
You said you loved me But not the same way I did you
You said I was your most trusted friend The person you relied on most
You said so many things as you fucked me in the night
You said you weren’t ready To commit to anyone at all
I was blind to the bullshit I was replaced in a heartbeat
You didn’t notice me, melting in despair
You looked away from my suffering
You ignored the tears in my eyes
You chose not to hear the pain in my voice
You paraded her over and time again
A friend would care about another’s feelings A friend you were not.
Come one, come all, to enjoy our show! In our circus we inhabit the most extraordinary of creatures and you can see them in an exhibit especially for your entertainment ! We have a fully-grown dwarf, the strongest man in the world and, most interesting of all, a woman, so lament in her grief of her lost child, she deformed her own face!
Everyone has been a love-struck teen, but have you ever been under quarantine?
You’ve never quite appreciated wearing a blouse, or the simple ability to leave your house. Even the chore of going to the grocery store doesn’t seem to be annoying anymore
The days are endless now. The nights are filled with dread somehow Netflix doesn’t excite you like it did before Everything inside seems to be a bore Your muscles ache from not being used, but watching workout videos gets you confused Your weight seems to going up every hour But, you know, fuck it. Make yourself a whiskey sour
A man happens to be falling down a pit when he hears a loud scream. To his surprise another man was falling above him, but quickly reached his own falling level.
“Oh, hello there!” the fist falling man said “Oh, hi, you alright?” the second man said, as though he hadn’t been screaming his lungs out just before “Yeah. I’m Alex.” “George. Pleasure.”
Both keep falling in silence
“So, Alex, been here long?” “Not so long. I fell down on Tuesday” “Which Tuesday, though?” “Oh, I don’t know. Was today a Tuesday, too?” “No. It was a Thursday.”
“Right, so, George, you liking the pit?” “Well, not too bad. I mean its dark. You recon it’s bottomless?” “Well, I haven’t the slightest clue, probably is.” “Huh. Alrighty then”
“Come along then, we ain’t got all day.” Blake said, then he turned back to me “Oh, wait, you only got all day, eh? Ha!” And he started laughing. Truth be told I don’t know how I got myself into this position exactly, but I would definitely love to not be in it anymore. It was all just a game, really. Yesterday I was at a regular college party, drinking and grinding, I mean, I do deserve to unwind once in a while. I study law and hope one day to defend wrongfully accused people in court. Pulls out pack of cigarettes, shaking, takes one out and lights it “Can I have one, love? Might give ya some extra time” he asked me, smirking. He was an attractive thing, though, couldn’t guess looking at him how sinister he was. Tall, blonde and gorgeous. His looks could make a girl blush. Of course, I gave him one, but anyway, the party was a blast. At 4am people started leaving and it was only 10 of us left, instead of doing something worthwhile like drugs, or having an orgy, we had to be original and do a fucking ghost ritual. Who does a ghost ritual at a party? We have all seen horror films and yet we do this anyway. For the fucking thrill. I wake up today to this lovely face staring at me. Apparently he’s a demon. “Yall are total morons. You didn’t do a ghost ritual, you did a satanic summoning ritual. My name is Blake and I have come to claim your soul” I was shocked and confused, I was in denial, then I was in panic mode, then I got sad, I mean, I had only just blossomed as a woman! I can’t be taken away at the peak of my prime! “Come on now, how do you think I feel?! All I wanted was a lazy Sunday, but now I have to kill you.” Blake said, as he approached me “Hold up!” I screamed, surprising the demon. He was staring at me. Damn it, think, Madison, think. “You, you deserve a lazy Sunday! Why don’t you relax today and enjoy earth, New York of all places, which is the greatest city in the world!” “Hmmm” he was thinking “Ait, maybe a day to slack would do me some good. Interesting idea, love. Okay, lets do it” “Great!” I said. Now was my chance. I could go to the library and research how to get out of this... “That won’t work, darling. You and I are bonded souls from now on until eternity. No research, no shit, you are mine. Don’t forget that, too. I know all your thoughts, all your fears, feelings and desires. Now be a good girl and be obedient, mkay?” Annoying prick. Now Im taking him around New York. Fuck. I only have today, I have to get out of this mess.
When you feel the world is caving down Shattering like fragile glass When you feel your darkest hour is upon you Drowning you into the night forever When you feel yourself breaking, choking on your dying breath When you think your God abandoned you Leaving you alone to suffer
Look into the mirror, child Your faith, your hope, your life All is in those beautiful eyes. He gave you yourself, Knowing how difficult it would be But strong as those eyes are Strong as your reflection stands Strong you are as well.
And there she was. In her blue jeans, skyrocketing on the swing, as though she could actually fly. Her long chocolate curls glistened in she sunshine and blew in the wind. Her angelic face with little dimples on the cheeks and covered in freckles from the summer sun. Her eyes- kissed by the ocean, as blue as its deepest waters. You could get lost in those eyes for hours at a time, wondering how far they actually went. How amazing must her soul be, if its gateway was indeed unmeasurable. Her smile was filled with child happiness, revealing a tooth missing at the front. She laughed and my heart skipped a beat. I went up to her, my pulse intensified and as a true gentleman... I pushed her off the swing. She fell down and started crying. I stuck my tongue out and mockingly told her “Ewww, get your shtinky girl cooties off the swing, nasty Becky!” We might have barely been 10, but I think in some way we both knew back then that Becky was going to be my wife.
