Suck it up my mom says, closed mouths don’t get fed, stop being shy, and learn how to speak for yourself, but I can’t because as a little girl you’ve taught me to not ask for anything, to only speak when its necessary, to learn to accept and be grateful for what people give you even if it's the bare minimum, so now that I've grown up I can’t speak I'm embarrassed to ask for anything, ill die of th...

In a tiny box locked away are all of my memories photos from when I was a baby, in middle school, college, and even high school, bracelets my friends have given me, cards from birthdays, Christmas, and Easter, any small souvenir from where I’ve traveled too, but there’s one thing that sticks out to me one thing I wouldn’t trade for the world because it meant so much to me the old smell still lying...

he has an intoxicating smell one that I can whiff from a mile away these green eyes are mesmerizing I can look at them all day and get lost in them it's like a forest, and his voice the way he talks, his laugh, the way he listens, and is honest, but he's older and I'm little apparently, and technically he can absolutely go to jail for it I know that for sure, but if only it wasn’t I would definite...

I think I achieved it, even though I've failed like,e 50 times now, speaking in literal terms, should I give up, I feel like I should, and every time I decide I should I try again and again until I break and own and decide I don't wanna do it again and then I start again, I have an emotional attachment now, I can't let go I'm obsessed now and I'm going to forever stay in this cycle I'm trapped in,...

I'm walking down Times Square Street in New York and I see every color in the rainbow even the ones that aren't even actually not there, everyone is in a rush to get somewhere, random groups dancing and doing tricks, and I see Mickie Mouse, Cookie Monster, big bird, and a bunch of other characters taking pictures with little kids, tourist taking pictures, couples holding hands, stores are so full ...

crunchy, shriveled-up leaves worn out drained from the life I relate I do I shouldn’t be here everyone says that if you dream that you're waking up in the world where the trees all died, you're cursed forever with eternal sadness and emptiness but I've already been in eternal emptiness I've lived it my entire life so maybe seeing this grand big tree is my cure or maybe a sign this will continue fo...

I confess I haven’t been okay I'm struggling so much I miss when we were close now it's just empty I read our old text and wish it were back to that when you cared when we talked to each other and cared Now I feel like when we do talk the conversation is like a check-in nothing is said at all, I confess I don't know what we are because even tho our relationship is something people call a friendshi...

The beauty of winter is the peace it brings, the snow covering up every piece of the ground in white, just like paint on the floor spilled, the feeling of warming up from coming from the cold, snowmen the fantasy of Santa Claus spending time with family because let's be honest no one wants to be outside, decorations, making gingerbread men, matching pajamas, watching the most popular movie the gri...

It was never meant to be right? I mean I guess I was just expecting more, wanting more, my desire for wanting something I can’t have overtook me and drove me to my happiest point in life except when reality brought me back down it also drove me to my lowest point, you make me doubtful of everything you treat me so well you show interest and care and then the next day it all goes to hell, I’m scare...

Forever, infinty, those two words mean the same there are often related with time, but what is time ? one day is 24 hours, 1 hour is 60 minutes, one minute is 60 seconds, decades, centuries, and so on but does it matter I mean talking in literal terms as in like you need to turn this assignment in by 11:59 that's important but time to me is useless we have too many seconds to live make every secon...