I knew it was bad for me. I knew it was a hard addiction.

But every time I saw that deep green inviting me for a swim, every time I saw that raven black screaming for me to tangle my fingers in the soft locks, I had to get another hit.

Like today.

Today I was sitting in my favorite coffee shop at my favorite table where the sun shines just right on my face. It’s the perfect start to the day.

...

God humans are stupid.

I mean it with all due respect… however little that my be.

I mean, SERIOUSLY! Here I am watching one of the bigger ones about to leave on some stupid dangerous mission! And even then, the other humans are training to go on one as well. To make matters even more confusing, they are EXCITED for it?

Yeah, there is a reason that I have to stay and protect these idiot human...

Well that’s not good.

To catch you up, my name is Jill. I am your average teenaged girl, so I don’t exaclty know how I ended up in the my own wrecked house with the knowledge that my parents are spies.

Looking back, it might not have been a good idea to attempt to hack into a secretive USB file that I found lying on the kitchen counter…

… but in my defense, that thing was just asking to get br...

At first, there was nothing. She felt stuck in a void that clung to every part if her being, restricting even the slightest twitch.

And then, there was burning.

Everything burned.

She could have sworn she was screaming, but silence was the only thing echoing in her ears.

It felt like an eternity. Invisible claws tore at her chest. Invincible strings wrapped around her wrists and her ankles,...

Everything was red.

Well, technically not EVERYTHING that would be ridiculous…

… but everything that mattered was red.

It was always my favorite color. I never knew why I was drawn to it, but it always made me happy.

It was the color of my mother’s favorite lipstick.

It was the color of my most comforting teddy.

It was the color of my prettiest dress.

It got to the point where I wanted eve...

God, this was so humiliating.

I don’t even know how I got this low in life, to where the only place that called me back was an elementary school. I got hired as a janitor.

My first day and there was snot covering the walls and unidentifiable stains in every other inch of the carpet.

I barely even started yet and I was tired of it all. I could feel the weight of it all start dragging my feet a...

Am I ready?

Before I go, can I say goodbye?

Countdowns are overrated.

Do I deserve to say goodbye?

Everyone will probably be better off without one.

Forevermore oblivious.

God, why is this so difficult?

How could this even begin?

Isolation is the best decision.

Joy will still exist, right?

Knowledge will still matter, right?

Love will still be relevant… right?

More people are being disillusioned.

...

“I was gone for five minutes! What happened here?”.

I scanned the room, doubtfully that I could actually get an answer.

Almost all of the cushioned seats were on fire surround by at least an inch of water flooding the area. There was a hole in the wall and a hole in the ceiling, big enough to leave just the edges to justify calling them a wall and a ceiling still.

I stared down the two teens ...

In every argument you always cross a line

Each win you get still feels like mine

Silence is abundant when we dine

The food you prepared still tastes like it’s mine

You sing off key sounding more like a whine

Those broken notes still sound like they’re mine

You douse yourself in perfume, getting a shine

The overwhelming scent still smell like it’s mine

When you stress you turn to food and wine

...

“Do not go home tonight”.

I stared at my phone and the excessively shady text. There was only one thing to do.

(Mama?)

(Is that you?)

I just had to text back, there is no way I was letting this moment go to waste.

“Do not go home tonight”

The text was resent. Ok, this guys was being smart.

(It’s ok. I know you have sleepovers with people who aren’t my daddy.)

(But I’m hungry!!)

(Cant you...