you’ve come back

but i no longer need you

i will not allow my back to my stabbed

using shards of glass

collected from your fragile heart

and your fragile masculinity

i will no longer accept that pain

in order to feel something

in finding contentment within myself

i’ve found an excuse to build walls

for i finally have something worth protecting

i’m not mad, not jealous

i hope your nex...

thoughts dripping away

like steady rain

leaving droplets to fall

slowly down car windows

i hadnt known

souls could intertwine this way

for the first time

pressureless

you’re the first to feel real

to feel comfortable

to feel okay

we lay together

skin to skin

hand in hand

heart to heart

i wait for the sinking feeling

wait for the nausea to set in

but for the fir...

actions i once found endearing

giving substance to your meretriciousness

tearing me and others

apart at the seams

scars deeper

than ever imaginable

my naivety proving pernicious

i dont hate you

i could never

branded in your name

though not with passion

but empathy

i know you too deeply

to ever admit i was wrong

only once in a while am i angry

the anger does not burn

it’s not a rag...

your name is the most common word coming out of my mouth these days.

i talk about you more than myself

and it’s not close

for you are held so near to my heart

woven so deeply into my soul

a person may no longer know me

may no longer understand me

my thoughts

my story

without at least hearing about you...

if wishes fell like rain

then i am certainly a storm

for the way you speak

senteniously

i don’t often need to ask for a word’s definition

you tell me you adore my brain

the way my words flow like water

“so smart, so well spoken” you tell me

i wish i’d received this

this form of love

i wish it had come sooner

i wish i hadn’t spent years

needing to elucidate

what i was attempting to con...