I’d never been loved entirely until I met you. Neither had I experienced the deepest part of my stomach slam to the floor when I heard a name spoken just loud enough for my ears to perk up like a dog. I have never craved someone with my entire body before, never wanted so baddly for someone to want me. Neither had I ever had someone break the ground from beneath me and watch me plummet to the bott...

Sometimes I feel numb, immune. the sensation of shock, or relief is the only thing grounding me to earth. every step i take is softer than the one before, and sometimes i can't feel my feet. but here i am, laying in snow. my body screaming. yet my mind quiet. the sounds are gone. such an odd feeling. though i do not enjoy it, it is a distraction. my mind is pink and green, like flowers in a garden...

Sometimes I imagine myself floating, above everyone else. looking down on the world. And if i look close enough i can spot myself. Deep in routine, blending in. How could i see myself so differently from everyone else, if my steps down the street always follow behind someone else's? i see it as though only i have walked down that path before. But in following behind someone else's steps, i forgot ...

You'd always spoken to me before, and sometimes if i shut my eyes tight enough, and relaxed my fists just enough it would feel like i was floating. You beside me, and the image of your smile would replay as you whispered inside my ear how much you'd loved me. But now, as we stand inside this hallway, no one but us and the sound of lectures surrounding. I knew it was gone, now the tighter i shut m...

But who, who is this inside my head. Though i have no shame to speak, i was beside myself when they spoke again. More content this time as I listen. It's as though my head cannot connect the sound to anything but my own, it is my thoughts though i'm not thinking. "Let me go." It speaks. My ears heard no noise. But my heart heard it more then anything else. I cannot let you go yet. Although i knew ...