This is home
But why has it changed?
Have I been away too long?
How has this feeling remained?
This is home
A place I left, but came back too
An invisible sting, drew me back
Oh how I’ve missed this view
But now my home is broken in two
Where I should be and where I ran too
I belong to both but to neither fully
A place of dreams, and the place I grew
The city or the town my home
But which to ch...
I’m upside down
The world is spinning
But why are all the creatures grinning?
I’m upside down
Why can’t I stop?
Tell me when the other shoe will drop
I’m upside down
Oh no, not again
It’ll all calm down, but tell me when?
I’m upside down
I can’t do it anymore
My head is getting light, and now it’s sore
I’m still upside down
But when will I fall?
Oh how I wish I could stand proud and tall
Will...
Another year, another cake
They see me wish, my smile fake
I fear getting older
Glancing over my shoulder
Petrified of memories I’ll lose
They sing cheerfully, my ears hear the blues
So I scrapbook, write it all down
Never knowing to stop, look around
By fearing losing moments
I miss the rainbow, ignore the poets
They say life is short, so savour it
Haunted by forgetting, too absent to admit
I’m n...
Hidden in the trees, cement stones litter
The silence perturbs, the nightlife titter
Visits in the dark, the dread beckons
Wandering endless rows, searching sections
Beyond the rust clad gate, wind swirls
Branches yearn for contact, shadows cast the burls
You linger a moment, words you can never find
A soul to tether to the mortal plain, our momentary bind
Your eyes trace the letteres carved, so...
_*TW: dark themes*_
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_“Swallow me whole.”_ I begged. My bright, colorful room filled with nothing but dread. Door shut, thuds of loved ones before they give up. Shouting _“STOP BEING LAZY! You’re such a screw up.”_ I welk in my bed, enacting evey berufen I know so that the monsters will leave my head. Confined in my room, weighted with items of tremendous memories. Walls of posters, sh...
If I count the ways I love you
No number big enough to go up to
I’d run out of fingers to count on
Need the future to have come and gone
I see you in the glow of the sunrise
And in the warmth of the sunset skies
I feel you in the comfort of our song
I dream of the arms in which I belong
I hear you in the silence, your voice calm and free
Your laughter echoes worlds around me
I love you when you’...
You didn’t see me breaking
Breaking down
Breaking free
Breaking through
Breaking my back for you
Now you get to see me breaking
Breaking up
Breaking hearts
Breaking records
Breaking a smile
Breaking you
Breaking made me
Breaking finally broke you
Aren’t you glad I was okay with you breaking
Breaking me?
LLK....
I screamed so loud, their voices echo while I’m sleeping
When I heard the secrets they were keeping
Fading in conversation to hear them screech
Searing my insides like a glass of bleach
Whispering reminders of failures in my past
Rain on my parade, laying waste to a sunny forecast
Doing anything to escape the internal riot
The curse of having a mind that won’t keep quiet
Avoiding thoughts of min...
Happy Birthday!
They sing
Delicious cake
The candles lit
Only now my wish
It’s been a great day
So many gifts
Eaten so much cake
Laughter
The flames flicker
They cheer
I wish this moment could last
Forever
I dig in
Slice by slice
Till it’s all gone
The plate empty
Happy Birthday!
They sing…
Another cake
The candles lit
I dig in
Slice by slice
Till it’s all gone
The plate empty
No more!
I c...
KNOCK
KNOCK
The echos louder
My door rattles
KNOCK
BANG
They’re going to get in
There’s nothing I can do
BANG
BANG
They’ve stopped knocking
Now they’re banging
They’re getting angry
But.
I’m frozen
I can’t move
Glued.
Tense a muscle
I can’t
Move a limb
I can’t
Scream
I’ve tried
Shallow breaths
Shiver and sweat
Wait.
Silence.
The bang has stopped
Maybe they gave up
Am I safe?
CLICK
Oh...
