I had an illiness for a period of time where I was in a chemically induced coma. When I awoke, I found myself in a room I did not recognize. It was very strange, the room had all of my belongings, but the room was different. It had mirrors, I am not a great fan of mirrors. Being unconscious for so long, it made me wonder where I was and why I was in this room. This was all very disconcerting, as ...
I know that I was selfish. But sometimes you need to do things to gain respect in the corporate world. For those who have never worked for global company, it is a complicated world. There is still the “glass ceiling”. It is dificult for women to move up the ladder. I finally got the promotion I had so longed for and deserved. My friend did not get promoted. This was the first crack in our friendsh...
I dread family get togethers, lunch. I always feel like I am walking on eggshells. There is always the offhandedly stated comment that pisses someone off. Usually it comes out of my mouth. I do not suffer fools well, regardless if the fools happens to be a member of my own family.
So I limit family contact to virtual contact and phone calls. A multiple hour drive to do lunch tends to make me bitc...
Sleeps come hard to me. The constant pain that I live with is intense. Medication is not working. Pain is the problem when I am awake. In sleep, horror is the issue. I dream. The dreams which I remember are terrifying. I see him in the distance, he is a ghost. He is moving closer. As I see his face, my whole body freeze in fear. I can smell his scent; it repulses me. Oh my God, help me, what is h...
Why am I sitting here writing this book? It has taken me a lifetime for me to get mad enough to want to write all of this down. I have been totally controlled by one person or another for my entire life. I have been manipulated, diminished, admonished and violently beaten so much in my lifetime. Why have I not done something about my situation you may ask? I try to see the good in everyone I meet....