Just a teenage girl who loves exploring and growing creativity in every way possibleâŚI love sunsets, little puppies, flowers, and so much more
Just a teenage girl who loves exploring and growing creativity in every way possibleâŚI love sunsets, little puppies, flowers, and so much more
You left a while back. Leaving slowely little by little. I didnât notice at first. You, Pushing me away. I realized and shoved myself for the rest.
I remember laughter. And late night talks. The good old times. When neither of us were hurt.
Now thereâs snapping back. And pulling away. Each hurt in a different way.
Torn between lonliness. But being forced to leave. The better thing for us. We changed. Apart.
You told me I hurt you. And it ripped everything inside me. How could I do something like that? And how could I not even remember? Remember something that keeps digging at your heart.
Maybe me leaving really is for the better. For you at least.
But I watch longingly as you laugh at new things. Things that arenât for me. But I wish were. A lost connection. And some severed ties.
All buried feelings. Some that I still donât know how to find. Late nights crying. And moments of dead silence when I go around with you.
I found out a lot. Almost too much to bear Weighing heavy in the mind and heart. A lot about us. A lot about me.
I donât know whatâs true. Stuck in my thoughts. Am I really an aweful friend? Do you no longer see me like how you used to?
Questions in my mind. No answers. The only callers name âlonely and lostâ rings across my brain. No longer you. No longer me. No longer us.
A scratching inside my chest. I donât even know who I am anymore. Too quick to judge. Too quick to snap. Too much of something too little. Qualities I never want. But have.
And when things seem good with us. It all gets crushed. Maybe weâre stuck drifting. Becoming distant.
So I cut up our bond. Cut right through the knot. Watching it all fade away. With an ache I canât help but shake.
And I look the other way. Try to forget. I let you go. Letting myself go too.
Running in a forest of grief. I burn it all down to the ground. Forcing away every memory. The bad. The hurt. The good. The joy All of it I try to let slip.
Iâm a wreck. But act like everythingâs fine. Of my smoke filled eyes. Accustoming to the way it all burns.
Itâs darks. Iâm scared. And I hide for a long while.
Then You come find me. Calling out my name. I wish I could say: âYouâve come back, But I no longer need youâ
It hurts to tell this lie. So instead I Seattle for something more. Something real. Something true.
âYouâve come back. I missed you, I need youâ And I start to see clearer skies.
I fold into the comfort of you. And watch it all come crashing back. Apologizing. And fixing. Working to Piece together all the cracks.
Crossing our knot back together. Slowely little by little getting closer. The better thing for us. We change. Together.
Still a little unfinished. So I wait. And keep on striving.
Hold me tight in your arms And as everything slows Just for a second Just you and me.
Hand in hand At the park we both love Laughing Staring at the stars And then into each others eyes.
Holding my breath Waiting for whatever Will come next You whisper goodbye With one last hug One last kiss. One last moment of us.
Love me twice You Let go. And I fall.
Eyes wide open and I donât even see myself What does everyone see in me? The truth Something simple;
Blonde hair Blue eyes 10 fingers You get the idea
But what about something more? Something complex That everyone sees differently;
Beautiful Kind Funny Or maybe the opposite of all that
I canât decide So I Let you choose
In the meantime Iâll look in the mirror Waiting to finally wake up
