I’m going through changes

It comes in phases

I’ve been putting out blazes

As I wander alone with my thoughts

I’m going through changes...

On awakening today I noticed the world was just slightly off

As if everything was on tilt

I felt odd and uncomfortable and clumsy

The world was just slightly off

As if everyone was on a designer drug

Except for me

They seemed to talk in riddles and rymes

The world is just slightly off

As if nobody understood me

They just didn’t get it

I was alone with my thoughts of abandonment

The world is ...

I awakened at four

On the water by daybreak

The work is hard and wet

The time has come to rest my weary bones

But what do I do when this story ends

Time and idle hands may be the death of me

The yields have diminished

And my crew is but me

And as I pondered what came next

I do what I do daily

And seek refuge from my busy mind

At a tavern on the water

As I hoist my aging body from the boat

I...

My mind is slowing from coming and going

As far away as I can see it’s just the ocean laughing gulls and me

A deep sense of calm followed as well

As I unpacked a blanket a book and a bell

This ritual of drumming singing and dance

Soon I felt the music in my body I’ve entered a trance

Swaying and moving my body is free

And here on the beach I can totally be me

I’m flawed I’m damaged and worn ...

Pandemic brought us together

We yearned for companionship

We walked we talked

And then it happened

One spoke of dissent

Then one became two

Loud and proud of their opinions

Then it happened

A slow realization

The values they expounded

We’re divisive and conspiratorial

And then it happened

A slow burn inside of me

Why did I continue to show up

What were these women contributing to me

...