There couldn’t have been a more cloudy day.

I stand with my back to the cold wall

In a corner bookstore,

sitting high upon the shelf was a book titled

“You need help?”

As I reach for the book

The first page reads

“Let them be, if it’s meant to be, it will be”

As I gather air back into my lungs

I quietly put the book back into its place

Right away seeing your face.

I blink in hopes it’s ...

The beam of the sun shining through the window highlighted a part of your face.

Your eyes were a brighter shade of green, a color I’ve never seen before.

When you smiled I looked away.

There was a drop in my stomach.

A good one.

The kind you get after you fall from the highest point of a rollercoaster.

I felt my heart rush with this strange warmth.

I felt the beat go through my chest.

My ...

I awoke in your arms in the beaming sun

A part of me couldn’t gather reality

It was all so out of touch.

I thought if I take this step by step we would grow,

Your touch meant so much even when you gave so little.

As your eyes flutter open the smile lines spread on your face

There was so much courage in me

But I had so little to say.

I watch you close your eyes and bring your hand back into...

Life without you is scary.

It’s dangerous to think there would be a world of me and no you.

Mainly dangerous for me and my mind.

You keep me afloat,

What happens when you start to sink and I cant save you?

I can’t pretend I’ll be fine or that I ever would be, even for just a moment.

Even for just a moment life without you means nothing. Not In some cheesy, stupid, metaphorical way.

...

I was once told never grow up,

Never let the innocent years go by

Always keep wishful thinking

Hold on to it all

Well?

What happen.

How the hell am I supposed to do this.

How am I supposed to be grown now?

Where was my mind when I was 5 and playing in the sand at the beach.

Why is it now flooded with so many worries I can barley breathe.

They truly weren’t joking when they said hold on

I...