**_Oswald_**

There is so much that I still don’t understand about Rayburn.

How did he feel when his parents died? How vast is his fear of fire? What does he think when he’s annoyed? Does he really love me, even when he avoids the question?

So many questions—questions that I absolutely ignore.

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The meadow is buzzing in the low wind and the afternoon sun. The tall grasses flow with the curre...

To the five boys who make every second of my life worth living. I love you.

**CT4**

When you were little I’d say, with a smirk and a grin, ‘all the girls are sure going to love you!’

You’d smile so wide and with the cutest of lisps, say “cause my eyes are so big and so blue!”

You’re older now but your eyes are the same, though they’ve already seen far too much.

You watched as your mama nearly b...

For the first 6months of living in Hollywood, I stayed at hotels using money I took, and went to the free clinic for checkups on the kid. I had been very happy when I found out she was a girl. I wanted to name her Hope, but if she were a boy, I would've figured something out.

The only thing I missed was my sister, Mary. And having my own bed. However, once I turned 15, I was able to apply for e...

Counting the ways I love you

Is not like counting stars

Or charting constellations

To navigate by

But like counting raindrops.

They keep coming

As long as the cloud is overhead.

They form puddles on my sidewalks

Pour through the leak in my roof

Flood my basement

And with great effort, if you asked,

I could clear the waters

With an eye dropper,

scientifically, day by day,

But for now I simply...

No, i couldn’t count those ways,

they’re so many that i summarized them in one.

I love you by valuing you every day.

Then, everything else by itself comes.

That’s why we only love once.

our love is so real,

that if we try too much we might fail.

we give 50/50 but i feel like i give 10.

and you say “girl, you are a 10!”

I know love is not a feeling,

i know love is a decision.

We decide to respect o...

If I count the ways I love you, I would be a mathematician...

My heart is overflowing to my brain,

you swarming my thoughts until I ache.

I want to kiss you a million times,

and say yes to your crystal green eyes.

Our souls are intertwined,

knitting together by our very connection.

The love I feel for you is so powerful,

so precious,

so tender,

so innocent,

so true.

I love you.

Every moment I see your brown hair,

I hope you come barring a ring for my fi...

If I could count the ways I love you

There would be more than just a few

A few Thousand ways

That sounds a bit cliche

I promise you that it is true...

1. The way a child loves the friend they made on the playground-instantly and without hesitation.

2. Like a dog loves the one who raised him from a puppy-fiercely protective and loyal.

3. As one loves a friend they’ve known since grade school- endlessly and abundantly.

4. As a schoolgirl loves her very first crush- tentatively and oh so hopefully.

5. The way a man loves his first love- gently ...

If you counted the ways

You are obsessed with me

You’d run out of numbers

But if I were to count

I’d reach 0

You’re a creep

Stop asking for photos

Of my unclothed body

You’re a creep

Stop asking for my clothes

Stop saying you want to

Impregnate me

You’re such a creep

You’ll be singing

“I’m not a groomer just a loser”

In a few years...