They told me, I’m better off alone.

Maybe I am ,but they’re not the ones crying in this big bed every night . It’s so lonely, and cold. I feel like I’m lying outside in the freezing snow, in the middle of the night.

It still tears me to pieces. I shake and I tremble as I curl into a ball .I pull my blankets over my head, trying to comfort myself.

I fall to my knees screaming “God help me please ...

All I’ve ever wanted was to save you from yourself.

With the odds of an early grave being stacked against us.

You’ve always felt older than I

Despite my role as the black sheep preceding you.

I suppose on some deeper level I always knew

The apex predator within would roar in his iron cage,

Unable to see past his own selfish desires.

The trail of breadcrumbs turned to drops of blood—

We don’t ne...

I lost everything.

My sanity.

My dignity.

My love.

My health.

My wealth.

My girlfriend.

My friends.

My happiness.

My sadness.

My life.

Yet I’m still here.

Who am I?

I’ll never know.

But you will.

One day you’ll know me,

And I’ll finally see who I am.

But for now I’m just,

Lost

Lost until I’m back home.

I don’t know what home is

In this bitter cold world.

I’ll stay alive for you.

You won’t have to ...

Drained of color

Hues fall from fingertips

You stomp in the pool of rainbows

The sun is gone, but my rain pours

I step into

my tightly fitted shame suit

I zip it up, blacken my view

You don’t have to see me anymore: I love you....

I shall shed no tears,

For why weep for a life that’s gone—when it was a life well lived?

Death came, swift and quiet,

And in his grasp, you slipped away,

Out of reach, out of sight.

Would I choose to know you still—and accept the pain,

Or would I trade the joys we shared—for a life untouched by loss?...

You never know how far a hill goes

Until you get to the top

You never know how far you can

Go until you fall...

(This reads to me like a folk song)

As the sun melts the blues of today

And the fire of the sunset burns away

Twenty-four hours of time done and spent

I blink, and suddenly the day’s gone and went

Inky night approaches by and by

Sometimes you’ve got to lose your footing to fly

28,000 more will come

Just counting down until I’m home

Yet the midnight sits so bleak and dreary

And every night my ...

Am I so wrong for weeping

In the times you are away?

I can only love you deeply

Never any other way

In nightmares I have lost you

And when I wake I fear

They have become reality

Because you are not near

I know we’ll be united

Post this agonizing night

But though dark is not eternal

It makes us forget the light

So in moments my strength fails me

I cry out to skies of gray

Am I so wrong for w...

Someday turns grey,

As she looks onward to the skies,

She took all the colour with her as she flies.

My head grows black,

I’ve looked for her all around,

But now she’s sleeping underground.

Please be kind,

More than she’ll ever know,

It’s all I wish for before I go.

I hope you know,

Which way to go,

For my sake, take it slow.

You were taken too soon,

You should’ve grown old,

In my pocket is yo...

You have lost me, but I have not lost you.

My life and its reminants are all that you are still.

Live on a wire, dancing in my head with all indications of uncold, breathing, exuberance.

My body knows presently how it feels to hug you as I did when you were here.

The hot bubbles in my chest ready to explode into a distinct laughter that only you brought out, still sit here waiting.

Your l...