We spoke,

We laughed,

We recollected,

But now your voice is so distant,

We wish to grow together,

But the world shifts us apart.

We helped,

We smiled,

We comforted,

But now the warmth is so far,

Life’s forcing us to freeze,

Taunting us with what little it provides.

We lived,

We frolicked,

Enjoyed our company,

But it’s all a shard of our minds now,

You’re implanted in my brain,

Yet you’re so f...

I wasn't told to to stay, but I knew I had to

There were no clear signs of restriction, but I knew this room lacked room

Though nobody ruled it, we didn't break this unspoken taboo

The elders spoke of soaring through a vast sea

Never truly questioning what it means to be free

I was born here, that question never truly bothered me

There are no walls stopping us, as far as I can see

You expect me ...

You tease me with your love

you know ill always chase after it

you walk my soul like a dog

though i was never the one to bite

you have been leading me for so long

i fail to notice im on a leash

walking behind you

i guess my voice got picked up by the wind

cause you never seem to notice me

i know you dont enjoy walking.

you tell me you love it

i use your lies as a blanket

i asked you to drop my...

With each and every generation

We are always advancing

Looking forward to a different path to take

Making a big impact in some way

That always varies with what people want

Which is anything so the wants are changing

Always there are trends and fads passing

With every year, every decade, every century

Thus meaning that no generation is the same

And will never be quite in reach...

It’s been an hour

It’s been a day

It’s been a year

I’ve been waiting to see your scared face

When you coming again

So I can see your eyes

Hear your voice

See you light up the world

With your smile and your jokes

Stuck in time

Can’t go nowhere

Lost in space

Life is a mess

Stuck in a darkness

Can’t find my way

I need help

When you coming my way

Saw your mother again

Said I was no good

Told me ...

Out of reach

It’s always

Out of reach

My dreams will never come true

They’re just thoughts

Thoughts that will never be real

Or even close

But the only way

That my dreams will become reality

Is to believe

Though they may be

Out of reach

All dreams

Could come true

Eventually

Anything is possible

Even becoming a unicorn

Or even finding aliens

But only if you believe

“In your dreams”

They s...

Listening to Home by Cavetown over and over,

Rereading all 200 episodes of Boyfriends for the sixth time,

Nestled in headphones with my cat and two layers of blankets.

I’m just trying to cope.

And it’s still not working.

“Okay” is always just out of reach....

hands clasp hands but the other pulls away

it was too soon, the touch

the familiar feeling of home in a single moment

it doesn’t matter what day of time or night it is we’ll always find comfort in our current

help is reaching and pushing and falling and screaming

it’s all so close like my thoughts on a loop, glued to my side

what a way to cast off what they like to call ‘attention’

but it’s noth...

I wonder

Do you know how much I try

The effort I put into my work

Do you know how much I long for your approval

For you to say I’ve done well

No of course you don’t

You only see my faults

The shortcomings in my work

How YOU think I don’t try

How YOU think I’m not enough

But I know I can be good enough

I know I try

I know I put in the effort

I know how much it hurts for you to tear me down ...

From the moment I breathed my first breath, I have been trying to achieve the impossible.

Never knowing the love and comfort that life claims to have.

I’ve endured a multitude of personalities, every one more painful than the last.

Never knowing who I was. Never safe enough to find out.

Just floating through this existence knowing everything and nothing at all.

Given all the pieces to this puzz...