I never thought this would be an issue

I’m counting calories

Looking in the mirror

Feeling unsafe with myself

Feeling like no one is hearing

I never thought I would try to starve myself

But here we are

I’m feeling sick

I’m sick of myself

I’m tired of my skin

And the pounds underneath

I look in the mirror

Feeling stupid

This is such a stupid thing

Why am I counting down days

I’m feeling lucid

My brain feels fuzzy

I pass out

Once or twice a day

I never thought I’d be malnourished

At least not this way