The day you have been waiting for

Has finally arrived

The one where I break

And can’t seem to not shake

But i try to hide the quake and the quiver

In my voice

But with my heart in my throat

I manage by only a sliver

I try to keep it inside

To contain the demons

To not subject you to my pain

Because you don’t deserve that my dear

The day you have been waiting for

Has finally arrived

The day where I snap

Because no one can read my minds map

I don’t expect you to understand

But can you just hold me please?

Pretend you understand

You’ll do it if you love me

But if you can’t I understand

I’ll wrestle my emotions

Back into my heart

Locking them tight away

The day you have been waiting for

Has finally arrived

The day where I cry

I can’t keep being shy

Memories and emotions

Leak from my eyes and down my cheeks

I wipe them with my own sleeve

Because its my job right?

I am trying so hard

But i cant always be strong

I needed to break, if even just once

I’m sorry.

[this is random but I have been feeling like my writing sucks lately because I have read some really good stuff. So if it dosent seem great or if it never has, I’m sorry]