18

18

_what? _

How can that be

How can I be an adult so soon?

How am I supposed to be in charge of my life when I still feel like a child

A child not knowing what to do

Or what to say

How am I to be expected to get a job when I can hardly take care of myself?

When I still can’t make eye contact without panicking

This just

Doesn’t

Seem

Right

Because when I look in the mirror I can’t even tell if I look like a child or the adult I’m supposed to be

And I know this is normal

I know it’s okay to feel confused

But it’s more than just confusion

It’s sadness too

For the childhood I’m slowly leaving behind

I’m just not ready

_I’m not ready _

_I’m not ready _

_I’m not ready _

I don’t want to be 18 yet

But I know

There’s no going back now

So here’s to 18

Cheers?