I came downstairs

In the morning

It was 7

Day was boring

I was tired

I was groggy

Out the fridge

The fruit was soggy

Then mom came

Into the kitchen

And she told me,

“Son, please listen”

“I know you’re sad

But not today”

Then she hugged me

“Happy birthday!”

And I smiled....

Happy birthday, freak!

Yes, you heard me

Happy birthday, idiot!

So this is how you go about

So proud

So ignorant

How about u say sorry

Oh wait you can’t

You're a horrible friend

Our relationships breaking

In two because of you

And to think, I still wearhs perfume

When you took my boy

I broke you

And how good it felt

Sweet revenge

So happy birthday now

Happy birthday, NOT!

Hope you have a very h...

A sweet sixteen is not so sweet

When I wish for it to be discreet

But it’s a celebration, I am no longer a kid

But i’m not an adult, god forbid

Eighteen is when I cross that line

Isn’t sixteen supposed to be my prime?

How can it be when so many difficulties await

Leaving me to sit here and contemplate

So what am I supposed to do?

The thoughts that surround me are all so new

I fear for the chan...

Ever since I was younger, I was scared nobody would show up to my birthday party.

I'd cry days in advance, preparing to be met with nothing.

I don't know where this fear stemmed from, but I know what it's bloomed to become.

I prepared myself to be alone so much that I prefer it now.

I close myself off, pushing people away as if expecting them not to be there anyway.

Why would they stay?

It's...

My Step Great-Great Grandmother

Is turning 101 today.

That’s my favorite number

By the way

I wonder how it feels

To be that old

To experience the world

All fleeting and bold

I wonder how it was

Back in 1923

When racism was high

Filling the sky with screams

But she’s still alive

She’s prevailed

Not in a nursing home

Still alive and well

Her mind’s not the same

But her family is here

An...

Another year, another cake

They see me wish, my smile fake

I fear getting older

Glancing over my shoulder

Petrified of memories I’ll lose

They sing cheerfully, my ears hear the blues

So I scrapbook, write it all down

Never knowing to stop, look around

By fearing losing moments

I miss the rainbow, ignore the poets

They say life is short, so savour it

Haunted by forgetting, too absent to admit

I’m n...

todays my birthday but you knew that,

i waited by the phone but no call.

i waited by the door but no knock.

i blew out my candles and wished for you.

the presents weren’t enough to distract me from the absence of your own. i unwrapped each gift expecting to find something from you. i never did. my phone dings, i see the disappointment in my mothers eyes when it’s not you. you ruined my birthday a...

18

18

_what? _

How can that be

How can I be an adult so soon?

How am I supposed to be in charge of my life when I still feel like a child

A child not knowing what to do

Or what to say

How am I to be expected to get a job when I can hardly take care of myself?

When I still can’t make eye contact without panicking

This just

Doesn’t

Seem

Right

Because when I look in the mirror I can’t ...

Happy birthday!

I love you so much.

I hope you have a great day,

And a great year,

And a great life.

I’m so glad that whatever’s happened between us,

Whatever we’ve been through,

I get to celebrate with you today.

And I hope we get to celebrate together for many more birthdays.

But for now,

I’m happy with this one.

Happy birthday❤️...

I used to

Love presents,

Cake,

Parties,

Fun

I used to

Crave it all

Now at 17,

Presents have become

Too extra

Decorating has become

Too pretty

Too draining

Cake has become

Too sweet

But birthdays

Still have my heart

Because I celebrate knowing

The love

That I get

From you every day

Is worth life

This is to you

And to everyone else

Who has given me

A reason to celebrate

Today

Today wou...