**My heart once full of life ** **Ever flowing ** With the warmth of love **But now frozen solid ** **Like a river in the dead of winter ** **My only friend the wind ** Who never stops to say hello **But whisk furiously through me ** **O how i miss the warm sun **

**But cold and dead I shall remain **

**Your beauty is like the sun ** **vibrant and bliss to all but me ** **for me it is like the sun for ** **I wish to see it every morning ** **as the birds chirp ** **and every evening when the ** day is done

**Will you be my ** **Sunshine **

Is death the answer __ _ my heart shouts to my brain repeatedly with no response _ __ _ As my eyes begin to close the battle rages within _ __ _I am no foreign prisoner stuck in a distant land _ __ but a prisoner created by the only one who carry’s the keys to the prison door _ _ _For we all are our own captors and chastisers Awaiting judgment _ _ _ _So bar after bar I bang my tin cup _ _singing a different melody everyday _ __ to the same song no one knows but is distantly familiar __ _ for we all have hidden scars _ some hidden behind smiles or long sleeves __ _is it acceptance,connection,love maybe admiration or some other minuscule obsession we seek _ __ _so ask the question _ how does one know what was hidden _ has been found _ _ _

Another day I waste as if I was immune to death Carelessness many call it

As I sit here doing mindless task for minimal compensation

I often ask my self is this all there is for me I know I am more I can contribute more

I am like the North Star Once a gift from god to guide u threw the night

But in this new world i am forgot like and undiscovered diamond hard to hold and rough to look at waiting to be heard

Like a shepherd with no flock to guide I feel meaningless no purpose to make me look Ahead

Just day bye day I sink further into this earth waiting for it to consume me

To die forgotten like most leaving nothing behind but a few sheets of paper

I am lost in this world I am lost in my self With no light to guide me I am lost I have no fear of the darkness For my soul is already consumed by it I am lost I do not seek to be found I do not long to be guided to the light I am lost But is who never wanted to be found Lost or are they hiding

Dead roses Dead roses you once bloomed and blossomed Dead roses Dead roses You once were strong and tall Dead roses Dead roses the mighty to shall fall Just like dead roses Death comes for us all 

I was too young to realize the hurt and pain you were causing many but to me, you’re a beacon of light full of love, creator of life, but too others you are the destroyer of worlds, creator of nothing a loveless pit of burning fire that could not be extinguished you were there every morning and every night until you wasn’t. I sit remembering the car ride with strangers wondering who they were where you were and why weren’t you there to protect me