Bit by bit
Drop by drop
Its to heavy to handle
And I feel it begin to cave
This dam ive built has begun to crumble.
It was strong
A fortress of solitude
I was confident and content
The barren lands of my heart were dry, voided of life with no room for dispare.
Until you
Cracks climbed the walls; scaling my mind like vines
Spouts of water would stream through
Leaking through my tears, as y...
My adoration for you began like a seed.
Planted in the cool earth to grow and enlarge.
As I grew, it followed suit.
Strengthing with the years of love and care.
The work you put in as its gardener created a blosoming rose
Years of vibrant colours and a reinforced stem
You watered, nourished, cared
But my growing perception browned the tips
You dropped the hose
You left it to fend for itself...
‘ I took the road less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.’
All the distance
And difference
That others have persevered is a great achievement
I feel drowned
And Displaced
Forced upon an uneasy path, watched like a candy to a kid
All the difference….
My slanted eyes…
Lost connections ..
Disappointed ancestors.
Failed expectations
I never choose to walk the road less trav...
I watch you dance
Your short curls flowing with your grace
Your expression unwavered by the hundreds of faces
I watch you enviously
Your unmatched work jumps at my vision
The way your adorable grin smears across your face
The joy you bring to the world puts the sun to shame
I sit siliently…Waiting… Watching
Dancing in the background of your shadow
You can see me,
if you tried
And you hav...
I dont want to think about it
I dont want to see it
I dont want to awknowlege it
I dont want it to exist
I want to continue waking up next to you
I want to sing with you
I want to hold your hand under the table
I dont want time to continue
I dont want to witness your peppered hair grow greyer
Though you will look handsome
I dont want to think about a time without you
I pray to the ...
3 days
November 20th 2023
72 hours
4,320 minutes till complete “freedom”
Free to do what?
Free to think for myself?
Free to make my own decisions?
Free to drink ?
Free to smoke ?
Free to live ?
Free to fall into the hands of dirty adults who “know how to help”
Freedom
Everything I’ve wanted since i was 12
The word seems foreign,
never have I had the luxury of relying on myself
Others wil...
I turn to you,
whenever the thoughts get loud
I look to you,
when I need the distractions
I read you like an open book,
Flirting over the words,
Indulged in your deepest moments
Fixated over the words you carry
Like the pages in a book,
I let my fingers linger on the page,
guiding me through an unknown world
Lost in-between the lines
Content and comfort lead me astray
Distracted by the spine,...
Light is the warm glaze the sun gives off
Light is the feeling when a day has gone well
Light is the autumn leaf floating to the ground
It is not the wind whipping at your hair
It is not the feeling of dread when going home
It is not the mouthfull of sand I feel draining down my throat when waking up.
Light may be the girl in class with the perfect body
I am not light
Light could be love, ...
We walk through the castle hallways, we move for what seems like hours, the endless halls making our perception of time derail. eventually were led to a door, it’s large and engraved with ancient carvings, the sun is hidden in one corner while a battle of souls is spaced around the rest.
Surrounding me, the party I joined begin to whisper amongst themselves
On my right side, my new light stan...
I wake up, my eyes struggle to stay open, im forced to blink hard to get used to keeping them open again after hours of slumber. Somehow, I roll myself out of my bed and onto my bedroom floor. Standing up I can see the mess that has accumulated for the last few months, the piles of clothes lie neglected alongside the pieces of paper I can only presume is homework.
I check the clock on my bedside ...
