Kitty on the loose Ran for her life When I was out of sight Made it to my room
Knocking over my treasures Mom claimed was trash Strewn across the musty floor Now broken and bashed
Worn hats and puffer jackets Clothes I never wore Sporting handsome scratches Kitty’s responsible for
At least she’s having fun thrashing through my room But she’s not yet done Kitty on the loose!
“Once you do this,you can never go back.You understand?”
His words cut through my thoughts like a knife.
Pain I’ve bottled up for years,came bursting though. Tears I fought to hold back for so long,until the final blow hit me,and I could no longer hold back.
Pain,guilt,regret. Memories playing in my head so fast,yet I remembered each detail so well.
Abandoned,lost. So many things that I wanted to forget,so many things that never should’ve happened.
Love,torn to pieces before I could truly experience it.
Happiness,something I never knew of.
Tears,forced into rage.
My eyes staring blankly ahead,not seeing what was in front of me,my vision taken over by memories and tears.
My last cry.
“You can never go back.You understand?”His words repeated in my head. Yes,but did I ever have a choice?
I took a step forward.
My last step.
Magic is what happens when the sun rises So enchanting,yet it’s there every morning The start to surprises A new day to do something Or a day to fall to waste Yet again,for there is nothing to accomplish When it seems I’ll never find my way
The sun,so far,yet it gives its rays so bright Colours in the sky As I woke up at dawn Makes me wonder why I’m wasting my life
Stuck inside my room Gazing blankly at my phone Terrible things happening,but what could I do Where could I even go When I’m still lost
But yet I know that I Need to get out there Soar through the sky Drift through the air Until I find myself
Make a change Learn to dance Learn to fly Teach the world why I was born
Figure out who I am What’s my talent? What’s my passion? And fix the places where I’m bent Why I’m broken and
Dawn to dusk Truth and lies Misery and fun Wrong and right
I’ll find where I stand,yet I told myself that night As the sun set And along with it I would one day rise
I was four When my vision left me I faced alone A world of darkness,not ready
Everything black The colors left my world But nothing was brighter Than me,myself and I As I stood there With pride
Who says sight is the advantage What happened to courage Strength,love,pride,empathy Who says I’m weaker When I still stand here Taller Reaching Higher Goals
I never saw me At a disadvantage I walked proudly Through all of that
You can say I’m blinded But I won’t listen to you Because I see The truth
And as I said before Nothing stops me From standing Proudly
From fur vests to button down shirts To kitten heels and denim skirts The purses and sneakers that litter the floor Leading to a slightly bulging door
Hangers laying on the cotton tees But no need to clean Just close the door when there is company She always says to me
Tight jeans,purple beanies,and grandma’s hideous presents Heavy bangles,sleeves in tangles,and frilly summer dresses
Thousands of stuff But according to her It’ll never be enough
Below my feet The fireworks rise It is an incredible thing to see From where I stand in the sky
Like blooming flowers Made up of fiery light Observing the bouncing colors As they explode in the sky
It is nearly blinding Seeing them burst from where I stand It is truly amazing Up here in heaven
Screams and cursing Annoyed or enraged My head hurting But what can I say
I’m younger They’re stronger And angrier,too
Why must they get upset Over the simplest things Another fight,yet To come after simple bickering
I want to hide in my room But that will solve nothing,I know For I will still hear them,no matter what I do No matter where I go
Friends either in camp or live to far So stuck at home Nothing to do but gaze at the stars And dream of being alone
I was a psycho. Selfish,crazy,and cruel. I should’ve known better.
Why did I let this happen?
He thought he could change me. Teach me right and wrong.
He loved me,and though I tried to hide it,in the end,I did too.
He saw me as a normal human who could change her ways.
Nobody else did,only he.
Growing up on the streets,been there since I was young.
Alone,and I let myself turn twisted.
Children ran and parents glared.
I never let myself cry,I only allowed rage.
I remembered the day he came,first conversation in my life where someone didn’t end up running.
And I remember the day he left,first time I realized all he did for me.
I’m so sorry.
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to realize what a terrible person I was. I’m sorry that it took so long for me to realize how great you were.
I’m sorry!I promise to change!
He sacrificed his life to save mine…after all I did.
I stood at the bridge,looking down at the endless sea below.
I was a murderer,letting you die for me.
It should’ve been me.
I jumped.
As I looked in the mirror I saw what I didn’t like I saw a monster And I wished that I Wasn’t me I wished that I could change Everything So I wasn’t so different and strange
I wanted to be like the rest I didn’t get it I wasn’t asking to be the best I just didn’t want to be this
That was the old me Back in the high school days But I learned that I just really Needed to change the way I saw myself in the mirror
