“Honey it’s time for school”.

I hear my mom say, as my wonder filled eyes flutter open.

For a moment I lay there.

Staring at the ceiling.

As a swell and ache fill my tummy with worry.

“Sweetie you’re gonna be late, please hurry”.

As I register the shouting coming from my mom, I sit on the edge of my bed and contemplate.

Contemplate whether I’m gonna be difficult or easy to send off to school this ...

I swore to keep my lips sealed

Heinous acts kept in the dark

The bruises and cuts I concealed

I couldn’t help it

Words of rape from my mouth were spilled

My hips and lips were sore

These marks and memories are something I could no longer ignore

You clawed at me like an animal

You were the predator and I was the prey

After you violated me I was poked and prodded photos taken of my beaten body o...

The hanged man.

He stays stuck.

Stuck in his own ways unable to grasp the reality in which he needs to change.

Mind clouded with delusions and the question of what if.

Stuck in this mirage of fear and missed opportunities.

His body lies.

Stiff.

To be able to move on is the willingness to sacrifice.

He may be a good man but has always been too stubborn to take his own advice.

His advice to relea...

As the leaves begin to wither.

And the skies start to cloud.

The seasons before while usually quiet,

Seem to become much more loud.

I start to wish for the sun to come out and play.

I beg for my sun kissed cheeks to reappear, and forever stay.

I remember and mourn every sunburnt summer day.

finally, when summer comes back around.

I will miss the brisk breeze of the winters.

all the filling h...

Every time you touch me

There’s a coldness within

Like I know every other body where those hands have been

Am I just another pretty face?

another body for you to debase?

I thought you’d make me feel warm

But your lips are like ice

And your hands are starting to feel like you don’t ask before you take

Or love is something that you don’t make

But you take

And you take

And you take

Your finge...

The screams.

That's what I recall the most.

The screams that made my ears bleed.

Made my heart drop to my stomach and have my

throat close.

I remember the first time you hurt me.

I was just a child.

A scared lost child.

All I remember is fists.

Your fists.

The pain that was being inflicted on my body

became unnoticeable in that moment in time.

I shut down.

I shut down to protect myself.

To shelter...

The lights

They blur and disappear in a flash

The music fits your presence so well

Your smile

Your smell

You turned to me eyes open full of wonder

And within them I fell

We would park and talk for hours

Hand in hand we’d walk within the night

Feeling as though the world is ours

Who knew this moment wouldn’t last a lifetime

Guess we didn’t happen at the right time

Or maybe our love cowers ...

As I close my eyes

Nature caresses my cheek

The Wind whispers the answers

The answers I seek

I’ve been lost for a long time

Wandering the ends of the earth

With no moral compass

I’ve been searching

Searching for my life’s purpose

I finally know who I am

These mountains I’ve climbed

And these oceans I’ve swam

No more being a helpless lamb

The grass pushes me to where I belong

And the wind...

Memory breathes

Pain weeps

Paranoia lingers in the head

It creeps

Anger runs down my body through my skin it seeps

My fingers curl into fists

My brain believes myths

Memories turn into horror stories

That play on a loop

My brain is cooked

It leaks from my ears like hot soup

I try to catch it from my ears

But my hands it sears

I am burned

I have lost my mind

It’s nowhere to be found

So...

Today has felt like nostalgia

The rain spoke to me

Mid evening

She listened

Felt as though my side is something she would never be leaving

The muggy after taste of her presence lingers on my lips

Making me recall all the conversations I’ve ever heard and said

I realize I have been left starved of love

Like I’ve never been fed

Maybe this rain will quench my thirst

Or lead me astray

Have m...