Money My husband Watches every penny Until I can’t breathe Thinking about the bank statement Every time I want to purchase A sweater, a pair of jeans, McDonalds. Something for myself. something for my two daughters, To ease the sadness of the chaos of life, To ease the deficit on the statement of our love.

a smile shining bright as diamonds. a smile you created. a joyful soul was mine. but that was the old me. before you stole my reason and love you betrayed my gentle soul and caring heart I used to sparkle like stars in the heavens but now the shine faded to star dust now we are two stars, galaxies apart and you still shine bright, while i form a planetary nebula forever fading till im simply dust and ashes that disintegrate

Home Broken. Pain. Home. Scared. Alone. Struggle for money. Hurt. Home. Lonely amongst family. Fists. Bills. No heating. Too little food. Home. Kicks. Punches. Tears. No help. Fear.

Out. Friends. Friends. Out. Talking. Laughing. Burgers, chips, beer, football. Out. A good time. Together. Banter, jokes, teasing. Not for real. Out. Our time. Love. Together, now, forever:

She was so beautifully broken and adorably scary that you might have thought she had everything, but her smile hid so much horrible pain, deeper than anything imaginable, that she finally just crashed too hard and she finally just fell apart, like an old broken toy, forgotten, worthless, empty . No one even knew she existed , much less knew she was missing. Was this the tragedy or the blessing?

Border

So thin

I could jump

The division between us

Seperating our souls and bodies

Yet my heart gravitates to you

You still will not let me in

I could come in but is worth it

No, I do not want to break your trust.mmmv

It is hard to fight this relentless urge to love

But I stay back, behind the border, behind the severing line.

Seeing others come and go while I cry in agony and jelousy

I shouldnt be jelous because you dont love me back but I am.

I fight the thoughts and urges to find you and love you but no.

I stay in my space, where the walls just keep getting smaller and smaller.

I cant breathe anymore, I cant see anymore, I cant feel anymore, Im trapped here.

I hear you laugh, I hear you love, but still not to me, I cant take it.

I hope you can hear my cries, I hope you can hear my screams, I hope you do

I wish you would love me, I wish you would care, But you dont and its ok.

So I stop crying, and I start seeing, and the walls dont close in any more

I shut the door, that could lead me to you, and move on from you

I pack my bags, and I go outside, and I find someone who cares.

He loves me for me, and loves no one else, He really cares

He builds me up, doesn’t knock me down, And I love it

I dont think about you, anymore, Not for a long time

I wish for it to stay that way for ever

But we saw you today out at the store

But you looked so confused and rather angry

So i said, Look whoes jealous now

And you walked away, What ever.

I really didnt even care

I need to say

One one thing

To you

Goodbye

…

🫀

A

Green leaf

So perfectly shaped

Lies on the sturdy

Brown branch next to mine

Mine, which cracks with even the

Smallest whistle of the summery autumn breeze

The green leaf, oh so kind and elegant, Touches my soul in a way nothing else can

I watch it’s every move, hoping to find the greenery

It seems to cherish and hold so easily, like a butterfly

But the more water I steal, the more sunlight I force in,

The more my insides dry from lack of rest, the more love I lose

Love, for myself and for every beautiful part of this world that I

Let my desire for perfection slowly capture, and which the green leaf beside me always

Seemed to lack, but also have more of then me, and as the winds get colder,

My life continues to dim, restlessness over takes my mind, and my hope flickers, sinking deep down

But as my branch eventually breaks, and I flutter all the way down, I look up at the

Tall tree, and remember the beauty our different colors created, and wish to be back up there, living life

But when a child picks me up, twirling me in their hands, I begin to remember the value of my color❤️

Sincerely, Caralia🫶🏼

(I have no idea what this is, and it’s also not logical at all lol, but heyy it’s something…! My biggest struggle is not comparing myself to others (especially people I know), so I wanted to write about what that would kind of looks and feels like for me I guess. Hope you enjoy! I made it up to 20 words too, was not expecting that😂)

She Was no One ,absolutely nothing Just a worthless little Freak, invisible, useless, no good Nothing ,but a great big Monster!

Once There was A little girl Who longed to be Taken away by the fae Transported into a world of magic And never return to her mundane life

I Can only Take so much Before I start to Fall apart at the seams

You see me struggle and bend Watching and waiting for me to break Knowing how much you hurt me each time I’m drowning and you’re the one holding me down

Intrigue Attentive gaze Smiles and conversations Immediate connection is felt Mutual attraction is easily confessed Indescribable pleasure brings two souls closer Feelings of lust evolve into something more Fast paced, deeply felt, entirely raw and real A connection so pure and undeniable takes hold now Walls have come down and the words have been said Soulmates, twin flames, red string, the fates, i love you too I can’t live without you. You never have to. Thank the gods