Shhh.

You can’t tell anyone.

Promise?

I’ve fucked up everything.

Absolutely everything.

Here, I’ll take you back to the beginning:

I liked a girl.

She was beautiful,

She was funny,

She was chaotic,

She was…

She was amazing.

She was everything I could ever want.

And, by some miracle of fate,

She liked me too.

And we got together in a slightly weird way,

But it had the same result.

We hang out all...

(Just to let you know. This part goes before the last chapter I wrote. Thanks for the reads!!)

I’d never felt more scared in my entire life. Holding Maisie close to my chest as I run through the streets, hoping that I’m not too late.

If I am then there’s no point, no point in . . . Life.

I pant as the hospital comes into view. Hold on. I think as I glance down at Maisie’s tired, lifeless fa...

In whispers shared 'neath the moon's soft glow,

Where shadows dance and cool winds blow,

Lies a secret in the heart's deep chest,

A silent word, unspoken, at rest.

Can you keep a secret, hold it tight?

Keep it safe through the restless night?

For secrets are like precious stones,

Buried deep in earth's old bones.

They weigh heavy on the bearer's soul,

A quiet force that takes its toll.

Yet in yo...

I’m not okay.

Something…

Something broke inside my head.

And I can’t fix it.

I can only bury it under my ruined dreams,

And hope the weight doesn’t break it more.

I can only shove it to the side,

And hope the force doesn’t shatter it more.

I can only suffocate it,

And hope the lack of oxygen doesn’t make it fade away,

Like a dream without fuel.

But it does.

That broken part of me,

It breaks,

It sh...

(Here I bless you with an old draft I never published.)

I hold his hand as I drag him behind me through the forest the same way I did as a kid, the memory of his laughs echoing in my head as I hum the song he taught me, it’s ironic really; the lyrics following after.

“Got a secret, can you keep it? Swear this one you’ll save.”

I grin, maybe too wide, and run faster. His body unable to keep up w...

TW: mental health struggles / depression

Can you keep a secret?

And promise not to tell?

Ok it may not be a secret

But I’m not doing very well

Everything is nothing

And nothing is ok

I’m not sure if I can handle

Waking up another day

I don’t want to be dramatic

Or a burden to my friends

But at the same time I don’t really know

How else this story en...

‘Vengence is best served cold.’

So says the story I’ve been told.

I’ve always feard being bold.

All my thoughts, I withold.

Fires dont always go out.

No matter how loud I shout.

My mind is full of endless doubt.

That I’m unsure I can live without.

Dim little lights dance around.

In my own mind, which I am bound.

Lost, never to be found.

The silence is defeaningly loud....

Can you keep a secret?

I have one to tell

Its not pretty

Its not silly

Its not easy to say

Will you hide my secret?

Can you keep a secret?

So sinister and dreadful

I want to share

But I’m scared

Will you keep my secret?

Or tell the world?

Can you keep a secret?

I have skeletons in my closet

And blood on my hands

Please dont tell a soul

Or I’ll have to kill you too

Why couldn’t ...

hoards of them

pressing against my inner walls

thoughts, feelings, stories

I write for myself

from the other side of the mirror,

another me

calls, shouts, cries, dreams.

inside,

a completely different world

a different life.

outside,

passive and reserved

a life only half lived

keeping silent to keep the peace

harboring secrets, I push them deep....

As the tears roll down my face

And I whisper to myself

“I knew it.”

Cause as much as I didn’t want to

I knew it

And as much as I didn’t want to believe it

I knew it

I saw it coming from a mile away

It was our cycle

The one you created

Every time you decided it was time

To leave me behind

And as the uncontrollable shakes start

And I can literally feel

The cracking sensation

And immense...