I looked in the mirror

To find myself staring back

At an old man

In the 60s

I took a nap

And dreamt of a lake

Where my reflection looked like a man

In the 30s

I was eating dinner

And saw myself in the spoon

When I found myself as a man

In my 20s

“What’s happening to me!”

Was my last thought

Before I fully closed my eyes

When I felt myself turn into a baby

I woke up with a hammering heart

Loo...

I could taste the sweet in the voices

my ears could swim in the vintage

classic of hums

You see these people are no longer here.

A loan, no change

I’ve borrowed time from another place

A one way flight to one hundred years ago

The currency of my fingertips on a screen

I am witnessing a turbulence,

The winds of ha’s and ooo’s

My destination: Distorted reality

Arriving in spiraling staircases,...

Tomorrow will be better he said

As he gripped his silvery cane

He kept his walking stick close at hand

Though his knee no longer complained

Tomorrow will be better he said

Looking out across the street he knew

The friends he’d known now long since dead

Their lives remembered by few

Tomorrow will be better he said

When his wife comes finally home

Each winter stretched long the shadows

That re...

Wires loop and coil on my bedroom floor,

and the head of the machine goes under and through -

seeking out signals,

tuning me like a radio.

‘What have you found?’

It talks in currents and jolts

that summon images from the graves of my mind,

and ushers them to my eyes

where they parade themselves

a carnival in the night,

waves of faces I know

balanced on bodies I don’t.

‘Where have they gone?’

...

But it's so much

easier to ignore

the pain.

Bleed through those

wounds that wear

his name,

just to ease my insane.

My devotion has

turned dry,

it all leaked out;

running from my eyes.

Still, there's more to

my knotted breath,

than all of these

lonely cries.

For far too long

I've been sleepless

and disturbed.

Quicksand like thoughts,

aching and absurd.

I carry our secrets

in my ...

I am trapped in a circus

And I can’t get out.

I am dancing to a tune

I can no longer hear

And the music is terrible

And it hurts so badly

And yet I cannot stop.

I blink,

And the crowd is laughing,

I blink again

And the crowd is gone. 

I look up

And there is only darkness

I look back

And all the light has faded. 

There is a ring

Around me

A ring

Or a stage

And on the other side

There are people

W...

Longing in my chest,

Distorted reality,

Ripping me to shreds.

Tattered at the seams,

Praying for just one quick fix,

Never quite enough.

Once upon a time,

I had dreams and ambitions

I gave them away.

I played the victim,

In the end, it’s all my fault.

You reap what you sow.

Now I stand amidst,

Remnants of my yesterday,

Shredded dignity.

There’s no going back.

Still, I faced the su...

I am Queen of Hyperbole

No one exaggerates like me

I am the best at overstating

I’ll spend days elaborating

I do not know of good or bad

Only magnificently glad

Or deplorably abysmal

I only pour, I never drizzle

When it’s nighttime I’ve gone blind

But I’ll melt when the sun shines

In winter I have turned to ice

Each itch feels like a million lice

I am not angry, I am seething

One small cough an...

In my dreams

You call me mine

I’m fast asleep

But you still make me day dream

In my daydreams I feel your hand

Grasp mine

In a lightning storm

You make me obsessed

I should be listening

To my parents, to my teachers

To my friends

But I can’t stop thinking of you

Think of you

With your hand in my hair

Wearing your hoodie

Falling asleep in your bed

In my reality

We have two dogs

And a cat

An...

bright white lights

strange sounds come from your mouth

your eyes beg me to understand

your face looks like a distant memory

like the parking lot at the beach

understanding just beyond reach

reason floating through the door

my breathing is slow

colors i’ve never seen before

shift swiftly in the corner of my vision

bright white lights

it all hurts my eyes its blinding

i feel the pain i...