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Alicia Jeanne
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Alicia Jeanne
For more of my writing visit aliciajeanne.com
For more of my writing visit aliciajeanne.com
For more of my writing visit aliciajeanne.com
I used to think love was urgent
I could feel it trembling in my bones
Demanding to be set free
Demanding I unleash it on anyone
Willing to show me
An ounce of kindness
An inkling of affection
I used to think I had to share it
All of the love inside of me
And if I didn’t
It would waste away
Expiring on a shelf
Like old forgotten apples
Turning moldy
I couldn’t leave any of it behind
But s...
Good morning
Of course I want to pet your belly
Do you think I’ll ever be good enough?
I wish I could see myself
Through your eyes
How are you so beautiful?
Do you think I’ll ever be pretty?
Do you ever feel the need,
To fake being ok?
Of course I’ll take your toy
And play.
Tug of war is easier
When it’s only with a toy.
I know your a dog
But do you ever play tug of war
With your own thoughts?...
Maybe –
Maybe I feel alone
In a crowded room
Where I am nothing –
But included
I know that I –
Am not beautiful
Or stunning –
Nothing above pretty
Yet I never go unnoticed
And I don’t understand why
And maybe in this crowded room
I feel lonely –
Because I know I don’t fit in
Everyone has a better friend
Than I could ever be
Someone to share
Their oldest memories
And that is someone
I could ne...
It’s happening
It’s finally here
They say I have nothing to fear
And yet my legs tremble
My tears burn my eyes
And I am still struggling
He told me I was pretty
And sweet
Told me I was unique
I believed him
I needed him
And then he pinned me to a wall
I know I said no
Know I protested
Yet I’m still being questioned
While he sits there
Waiting for the verdict
And still thinking he did ...
It’s happening
It’s finally here
They say I have nothing to fear
And yet my legs tremble
My tears burn my eyes
And I am still struggling
He told me I was pretty
And sweet
Told me I was unique
I believed him
I needed him
And then he pinned me to a wall
I know I said no
Know I protested
Yet I’m still being questioned
While he sits there
Waiting for the verdict
And still thinking he did ...
On days like these
I wish I believed
In Heaven
Wished I believed
In the great beyond
And that something wonderful
Waits for us
Because with the chill in the air
And the leaves falling
I think of you
It’s been almost a decade,
Since I got the news
Easter Sunday
Was essentially ruined
I called you frantically
Again, and again
Only to be met with your voicemail
I reached out
To friends of friends
C...
She has four legs
And a tail
And everyday
She makes me smile
Her deep brown eyes
And raised brows
Perky ears
And smile
She brings me her toy
Squeaking it loudly
Again and again
To try and entice me
Oh how I love her
This mischievous creature
My favorite part of the day
Is just she and I
With her head on my chest
And her sweetly closed eyes
And somehow chocolate
And hearts
And cards...
Now there are no letter grades
And I am not ok
How am I supposed to tell
If I am worth anything
When I brought home an A
My mom was happy
I got a reward from my teacher
And didn’t have to study so hard
I was worthwhile
And I was wanted
Now as an adult
I cannot bring home an A
on a report card
I can’t tell when someone else
Thinks that I hold value
I can barely breathe or think
With...
It’s sunshine
And flowers
And rain
The sound of it against a window
On a dreary, dismal day
It’s growing pains
And unkempt hair
And clothes
Tossed on the ground
Or anywhere except the hamper
It’s anger
And arguments
And tears
Some so happy they won’t be contained
And some of anger and pain
It’s their shirt
And the smell of it
And the feel of it
As you nestle your head on their sh...
The mist curled around my ankles, sending a shiver up my spine from the damp in the air. This was the best part of the day, walking the path to the river while the sun rose into the sky.
Father would be waiting for me on the boat, waiting for his breakfast and his forgotten coat, ready to tell me about the nights catch. As I walked I could practically smell him, the scent of his tobacco filled p...