She steps on the scale.

Just for extra precautions.

In case of extra measures.

When she wakes up,

When she sleeps.

In her dreams, there’s a woman or two.

Slender, with fat dripping down, her skin flapping, she’s a bird flying to the sun.

There’s a woman,

She is ever so large, plummeting down to her.

She wakes up, and doesn’t take a deep breath, she walks over to her scale.

It’s m...

I’m sorry Father.

I am, father.

For my father, I will ignore.

For his Father, I will sweat.

And as a bead of sweat rolls down my head.

I’ll look down.

Perhaps up.

I will sweat into the pool of Holiness.

My reflection staring back at me.

Hands interrupting our contact as they splash water into my face.

My eyes closed shut,

My mouth gaping for air,

My mother frowning.

I’m f...

The nearest building beckoned me,

a white cross slicing the sky

like a wound in flesh,

a pale welcome to the foolhardy.

Five feet to the ground

might as well have been five hundred;

the earth stretched wide.

Up there, beside God,

I could not be afraid.

He was silent, watching

with indifferent eyes as I leapt.

No holy hand reached out

to catch me as I tore

through heaven’s thin skin.

I expec...

You kiss me like an Oxford comma,

Like you think it ups your word count.

If you press backspace

4 ur ink xpenses,

Don't mind if the colo(u)rs fade.

You'll be rid of me before the

Bills are paid—

It's okay,

I was always redundant....

On the advent of change

The swinging pendulum between

Love and pain

The somber look through

The window pane

The left turn on the freeway

The tumbling of the blocks

You so carefully arrange

And the opportunity

For them to be

New

Or the same

Or put together in an all new way

To be forced to turn around

Is to change your perspective

To the trail you’ve been following

And a chance to cor...

(Verse 1)

I ripped my heart out, it’s all I had to give ya,

Doesn't matter now, you're gone and took my sunshine with ya.

Left me in this dusty town, this nowhere conversation,

Crumpled me like notebook paper, no hesitation.

(Chorus)

Choked on your rejection, a bitter aftertaste,

Like the whole damn world coughed me up and slammed my face.

Guess I wasn't pretty enough, my heart not...

Guess what I imagined today

I imagined that you caught me crying

And feeling miserable

And for some reason,

I just pour out everything that happened to me

And then you wrap me in a hug

Kiss my head

And say it’s OK I’m here for you

Telling me it’s not my fault

Whispering comforting words.

Then I snapped back to reality.

I shook my head, knowing that wouldn’t happen

But I hope it’s OK so fan...

“What do you mean you don’t want me?”

You’re my demons.

You’re messing up my life.

You’ve ruined relationships.

I don’t have space for you anymore.

“You don’t have space? Oh… Rylee…

Isn’t that what your aunt told your mom?”

You’re getting inside my head.

You want me to get the knife.

This time I won’t slit my wrists.

And you know it.

“This time… you’ll pick up the shiny

blade… you’ll stick it...

I never thought I would say hello

You came in a blink of an eye

You were at the time my everything

From soft words

Music to my ears

Long nights of sweet melodies

You were my lock and key

Safeguarding even my deepest secrets

Your words complete me

They lightened the way

But now the path is dark

Music no longer plays

Instead the cry of the wind down these hollow halls

Just a ghost replaces where t...

When I say hello you walk away

I say good day

You leave me in vain

I just want a hi, hello, or some

But all you do is look away and suck your thumb

I look your way in doubtful shame

That maybe what I do is lame

But when you say “it’s not enough!”

It makes me think you’re kind of rough

I want to go and hug you

Cry on your shoulder

But I think you are new

To sitting on a boulder

All alone...